yvonne

Thank you all for your kind words, It's such a relief to talk to people that understand, I have supportive friends and family but they only understand how we feel to certain degree and after a while I've started to feel like the party pooper lol.

Thank you for your responses. I know you're right, i'm no use to him sitting there like a zombie. Can't help the feelings of guilt though, his parents visit every single day and his dad is disabled, i can't bring myself to say i can't come to see him.

Hello everyone, I am new to the forum and would like to share my story. 4 months ago my boyfriend had a massive SAH. He is still in hospital, he cannot eat, speak or move his right side. We have been told he may not recover any more than this. Whislt in hospital he had a massive GI bleedand almost bled to death internally before anyone noticed. He is in Manchester and I am In london so unfortunately I an only see him at weekends, he knows who I m and understands what I say to him but It's killing me to see him like this, I have known him my whole life and was due to move back home to manchester to settle down with him before this happened. His parents are very supportive and visit him everyday and I speak to his mum every night. I feel very selfish and guilty for thinking about myself but I am struggling and don't know how much longer I can keep this up. There seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel so to speak. Every friday I drive 250 miles to get there and sit by his hospital bed for a few hours over the weekend to drive back here on sunday. People tell me to be positive but the reality is this may be his life from now on and I'm not coping. How do you get through the next months and maybe years doing this? I will not give up on him but at some point I am aware we may of reached the end of the road adn he won't improve anymore, how do you know when this is? the doctors just keep saying ''I don't know''. Many thanks for taking the time to read this.