Hello everyone! I am sorry to make my first post on this site one so long and so negative. But today everything just feels so hopeless. I had my SAH 4,5 months ago, and I know I am so lucky to survive it. During my recovery I have suffered bad headaches, strange sensations on my scalp, the feeling of pressure in my head, fear of death when going to sleep, immense fatigue etc. However, I sort of seemed to manage all of this without going completetly insane, probably mainly because of my husband and two children. They always seem to make me forget my troubles, for which I am thankful.
I was starting to feel alot better than before a few weeks ago and felt I was in a happier state of mind. Suddenly I was making progress, both mentally and physically. The headaches subsided and I was able to do more without immediately having to nap afterwards. Happy days.
Then, out of the blue, my left ear started playing a tune for me, day and night. I have always been sensitive to sound, and I am a very light sleeper. This sound, although in a fairly low volume mostly, is starting to make me feel crazy. It occasionally goes away, and even when it does, I just seem to wait for it to start again. And so it does, at completely random times. I went to sleep last night, everything quiet, and I was so happy.
Then, at 3 o’clock I woke up and there it was again, louder than ever. And it keeps following me today. I just can’t relax. I spoke to a stroke nurse yesterday, who said that according to the doctor, the sound was not in itself an indication of something dangerous. Therefore, it was not the hospital’s problem, and I had to go see my GP about it. So, I called and made an appointment for Monday, but something tells me they won’t find anything at all. I am guessing it’s just my head playing tricks on me. Anyway, it feels as if I have gone backwards in my recovery, and that is not a good feeling.
I don’t know what I wanted to say with this, really, I just felt I had to write this down to keep my mind from going mad. I am so glad I found this site and I hope you are having a good day today!