Tamsyn

I had a SAH in Feb'14. I can totally understand your thoughts, feelings and behaviour. I returned to work 2 months ago. I have a very busy job and two young children. Prior to the SAH I thrived on pressure and managed looking after the boys and being a high flyer at work quite well. However, I am really struggling to cope with both now, I feel that because I look and sound like the old me everyone has the same expectations of me (including myself!). I too find myself getting upset, angry and overwhelmed, things reached a head last week when I experienced my first panic attack and decided as a result that I needed more time to recover. Unfortunately being off work for longer will have a huge impact on the family finances, but I don't see that there is much choice. Being me seems like quite a lonely place at the moment so reading your story and the replies from other forum members is a real blessing, thanks for sharing!