wraith

I actually lost my job after my SAH because I could no longer "keep up the pace" that i was able to do before. I really think the job had a lot to do with the event in the first place. It was hard and very scary but I did get a new job. Doesn't pay as much but is much less stressful (coupled with the stress of being "like you were before"). You can learn again,it is just very different and slow, S-L-O-W. It is a blow to say the least but after what you have been through you can do this. I copied the "letter from your brain" from this site, taped it to my mirror and read it aloud to myself every morning before I even step out the door. You are different and you learn different now, but you can learn. It is scary and your self-confidence takes a massive hit, you have to draw on a different source now.....the one that lived through your trauma. Yea, that gritty determination that you have...you just have to find. You can do this. Not like you did before, but you now have experience with survival, make that your confidence...and your friend.

Im new to this site as well, but not to the SAH process....go to the hospital. You have survived too much at this point to let a problem sneak in. I've learned with my own GP you have to push. YOU know your body better than any doctor and you know when something is not right. Let us know when you get back home. Take care of yourself.

I like Sami's Philosophy as well. I have learned so much just in the last 24 hrs. I now check this site before my e-mail and yes even Facebook. I have so many questions and concerns that I feel are quite late in coming but I have kept them to myself now I know I can get feedback and input. I'm going to learn so much about the new me and how to cope with her. AAAHHHH Counseling, that was my next topic. I wan't sure it would help. I did see a specialist in traumatic brain injury a few months after my SAH went through the testing and was evaluated he told me to see a cognative retrainer, but then insurance dictated otherwise at that time. I must find one here.

Today I am not alone. For the first time in 3 years. I'm taking my injured brain to work, we will do our best and be grateful to come back home. I so needed all of you.

Hey Skippy, Wow you've saved the day. I was thinking that this probably doesn't really work...but I was desperate enough to try. I'm so relieved that "someone" else has walked on this path. It's rather lonley with no one to talk to that understands. I have learned to make everything funny so I (and those around me) seem to cope easier. Well, some days nothing is funny and I feel so "victimized" that this thing attacked me in my sleep...in my own bed, someplace that I always felt safe...well not anymore. OOPS didn't mean to run on, but just wanted to thank you for responding, for being honest with me.....and just for being.

OK so I'm new but so happy that I found this site. SAH 08162007. I am having such a hard time recovering. I am back to work and all, have been for a long time. What I am trying to find out is that if anyone has experienced almost uncontrollable anger. I just celebrated 3 years of living after this and I still have not gotten "over" it yet. Any advice or suggestions?

I'm new to this site. But I had my SAH 08162007 and yes what you are feeling I think is very normal. Actually that is exactly what I'm on this site to find out as well. So obviously it doesn't go away very quickly but you can manage it. I have been on meds for depression/anxiety since the event, but a lot of it for me is to stop and realize that it is an effect, that sometimes helps me to get a grip on those feelings. It's the others that I'm having a hard time with. The heal is slow and may never end. But it's doable.