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Thank you for your comments!! It makes the effort truely worthwhile. Isnt it amazing how it takes something so awful for us supposidly intelligent brain leaders (!) to appreciate those that are closest to us. The Modern World? Equality? Making Changes? All vastly important but sometimes accepting you have done your bit and now its time to hand it over to colleagues and its your time to have with your own family. Sorry to be biased important to all but VERY important for teachers to take on xx REgards to all

Thanks for those comments Skippy!! It made me feel good because I believe the same thing! Better post SAH. It is taking me some time to work out but I think you are better. There has been a "sort of miracle" You survive a traumatic experience but you get the opportunity to reflect on what is important in your life and you have the opportunity to spend time with what's important You weren't bad before. Youre not bad now!! Let me explain. I was a busy assisstant headteacher who worked long hours to help children achieve. I loved my job! My family didnt see much of me. Now they see me all the time. In the 1980s to be successful as a woman life had to be dedicated to work and everything else had to fit in. Now MY LIFE is dedicated to my family and I am LOVING it. Its me who has got back in touch with all the family, we are all loving it, we never fell out, the years just drifted by because we aere all so busy. Now I dont give them a chance. I do all sorts of things to keep the bonds we always had present and in the news!!!!!!. I gave 28 years of my life to many, many children who needed me!! (no regrets by the way-positivity needed) Now its time for my own children and family Adjustment is the Key but it needs to be Positve adjustment Many many regards

Hi Dawn I agree with the others ring them and try to get them to explain it. Usually my OH send me the copy first before sending it to my employer so I can check my understanding. Its possible it could also mean to make arrangements for a " phased return" rather than a full time one. Hope you have your worries settled soon

Hi Lisa I just want to reassure you that Im the same- strange feelings going on in my head. Buzzing, soreness, swelling in the early days. Sometimes bad headaches. Some very strange sensations. Cold water feelings. Like its getting poured around inside my head. Yes I had a Craniotomy- 18mths ago!! We have to adjust! We are here! And we are a bit different- Dont rush take it easy and it does get better!! The most important thing to do is give yourself the time.................. Put yourself first and dont worry too much Sometimes these "strange sensations" can last a very long time but I am a very happy person regardless of the complications it has brought to my life beacause it has made me realise how wonderful life is. This site has helped me so much its unbelievable and always remember to come here when you need it

Hi everyone, it is a long time since i posted any news, I blame my attempt at returning to work. I had got back up to working 4 and a half days when it all began to go wrong!! If I had checked on here I would have seen why!!!!!. If I had sense I would have been back sooner- Im sorry I wasn't Believing even though I didnt say that I was back to who I was. I am not. I dont seem to have the energy or the abilities. This is not something Im moaning about or looking for sympathy. I just want to share my experiences to help others. I had my SAH in Sept 2010. I felt at my one year event I was making progress. The neuro kept calling me in for MRI scans and then on Dec 1st this year informed me that I had an inflamation between two of the lobes in my brain that had not grown or decreased in size since they first saw it shortly after my SAH If you remember Im the woman who had two annis. One small one that ruptured and one large one that was clipped and wrapped in muslin!! Unusual these days apparantly probably coz it can lead to inflamation. Since getting this info I have to admit I dont feel too good, Have I been suppressing these feelings up to now? Have I been lying to myself thinking I can go back to over 40 hours a week working in a tough challenging High school. Me thinks reality is biting!!! I have been in bed at 8pm every nite and up at 6.30!!! Maybe the op left me a bit insane!!! Well apparantly they will scan again in 6mths and I may need another brain op :shock: Yes a bit of a shock!!! Apparantly quite a dangerous op coz they dont really know what they are going to find- they expected me to be pretty poorley and not have proper use of my right side, problems with speech or worsening seizures. Im not really poorley other than seizures and fatigue. However I feel a bit lost and alone. I was so positive but now feel every bit of confidence has been wiped out from me. Do I have to feel like this for the next 6mths until the scan????? So why am I talking to you.............................. Because you always give the answers and I forgot that!!!! If the answers arent there then good advice and support is. Does anyone out there have any experience of this??? If not then I promise to share mine with you in case there is someone in the future. Please feel free to ask questions if you want Thank You for taking the time to read this, hopefully some of you will remember me and will feel you can help Regards Karen x:confused:

I cried after reading this! I have had a positive week even recognising I am a different person, a different person who has realised what love really means. Everyone on here has given wonderfl advice. Do what you have to for you and your children, its time for that Love

Its great to read so many people's responses to this. Why because its supportive. I think positively that people are trying to reassure us-dont like blaming the SAH for everything so try and make us feel better by saying its "old age" We know its not!!!. My short term memory was so useful!!! Now Im learning not to rely on its so much coz its not that good. We learn new ways, new talents and develop new skills. Surely that shows we are still " Too young" Stay positive Stay Focussed You are special and we are lucky Believe me!!! Kind thought and positive vibes to everyone Love

Hi I found your post and the previous ones re the weather and the barometric pressure really interesting, also the effects of the moon. It really makes you think I loved the reference to the cat being a cat lover of course and realsing they are the superior creatures "pretending" to love you so much so they get exactly what they want-EVERYTHING!!!! Laura please PM me if you do want a bit of support re going back to school. My work obsession is still there but I am determined to be more in control and being part of Senior Leadrship I may be able to help you get what you want with good advice!!! You can probably guess right now, this minute, as I lay in bed I feel a bit better- I hope it lasts!!1 Regards to all and thanks again. You all do make a difference

As always even a few kind words make such a difference Laura Secondary school assistant headteacher in charge of standards!!! Tend to be a bit busy! Love

Hi All I have read a few posts recently that seems to say people are having problems. Its wierd but so am I. I had my SAH last Sept. One anni clipped the other wrapped. I believed I was making good progress but for the last week or so I have felt awful. Im a teacher so not at work at the moment but begining to have dizzy spells and nausea experiences. I forget things more easily and cannot find the right word-its just not there!!! I am also incredibly tired for example I have been desperate for football to start again and then today I just had to go to bed this afternoon and missed it. This is a bit strange for me. I was confident and feeling very positive but now all the insecurities and fears are coming back!! I suppose what Im asking from you all out there is. IS THIS NORMAL??? do you go through patches like this when you have had a SAH and should I just bear with it. Do yo know half of me thinks its the start of the menapause after all I am nearly 49!!!! If you have the time I would really appreciate any advice that may be able to help Regards

To Carolyn and Win A Massive THANK YOU ! It really helps. Thank Goodness for this site Cheers

Hi all Read Win's news today glad to see its good!! I also got my appointment through on Saturday for the 25th August- GCSE results day. Im always in work that day so after go to work before my appointent!! Hope news is good at both events. My scan was on 7th June so seems a long time............................................. I am going to try not to think about it but will ask if they can give me a call in future just to reassure!!! Regards

Fab news Win!! Im really pleased for you and the family Love

When I was in HDU I believed I was been poisened by nurses especially at night so I would spit out life saving meds when they went!!! i would then reconsider and take tablets. A week later when moved up to ward-duing the night I unscewed Cathather and went and told other patients the govrnment were coming to collect me!!!!!!!!! After brain surgery I think it takes a bit of time to recover. I had 1 anni clipped and the other wrapped. My family told me it took about 3 weeks before I started to be recognisable. Dont worry too much if you can, It should get better. Its not days, weeks or even months!!! Im 10 months down the line and still have panic worrying days and others where I feel great, Just be there showing her how much you love her. It is enough Love

Hi Guys If you remember I last posted regarding the MRI I had. Well Im still waiting for an app as a follow up. MRI took place on 8t June and I have been ringing the hospital the last couple of weeks trying to see what is happening. My surgeons secretary told me at the begining of the week that the Doc who had reviewed the pictures was concerned that there seemed to be a problem with my left temporal lobe, he didnt think this was anything to do with my SAH??? ( just remind you one anni clipped the other wrapped) I went into panic mode really thinking all sorts doing too much research on the internet ( sometimes a curse not a blessing!!!) I spent a couple of days thinking I might have Parkinsons or dementia or some strange over sex type problem!!! Eventually ie Yesterday my surgeon rang me and said he thought the radiologist was been over cautious and asked me how I was. I said good and feeling positive up to this week. Dont worry he says you dont have Parkinsons and if you are well then thats good. He promised me an appointment soon So what do you think guys? The medics take so long to get back in touch ( bless them anyway) I dont think they understand how the smallest comment can have such a massive impact??? Regards