Hi Annie and Andy,
Thanks for the big hug, as I certainly could do with it. I was taken into hospital on Friday, as I was experiencing the Mother of all headaches and eye pain etc., along with a load of other stuff. My Doctor was great and phoned the hospital to say that I was coming in. I came back home late yesterday afternoon (great birthday!) after begging them to let me out, I was so sad being in there (I shed so many tears, think that the other patients thought that I was a loony!). They think that my aneurysm might be leaking, so I'm booked in for a MRA scan on Tuesday. They wanted to keep me in, but said I would promise to rest up if I went home and if I felt even worse to come straight back in. My Obs were fine, same as the other bleeds, when I had normal blood pressure and pupil reactions etc. So, I'm not sure whether that's a good sign or not.
My emotions are all over the place...........so excuse my typing as I'm finding it hard to think etc.....It feels like a ****** nightmare again and have mixed feelings as to what they might find or whether i want them to find anything........probably doesn't make sense. I'm so tired at the moment and feel just like I did when I left hospital last year. I feel that something has definetly kicked off again. I don't know how I'm going to handle this, if I have to go through it all again. It's feeling very surreal and I'm hoping that I will wake up and it's all going to be a bad dream.
Lauren is so upset, bless her and I really don't want to put the family through this again. The house is a torrent of emotions.
I have a great need of feeling that everything is in order and have packed a bag for Tuesday, just in case I have to stay in hospital or earlier!
Anyway, hope all you guy's will keep posting on the board. If I do have to stay in, then hopefully Lauren will be able to post my news to you.
Love to you all and big hugs,
Karen xx