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Good evening everyone, well I've now done 4 weeks back at work and its going really well I think my employer has got his confidence back in me to do my job again as he has me doing the kind of work I was doing pre-explosion. But I still have those anni days that I'm sure you all know what I mean, I had to stop in a motorway service station for a good cry once last week and twice this week you know what its like if you gotta cry you gotta cry:redface:.I am still enjoying being back at work and to be honest I think I always will now, since my anni I cant seem to put up with those constant moaners that you get I'm afraid I have no patience with that any more and and they don't like it when you tell them to stop moaning and enjoy the day as they never know it may be their last do any of you feel like that with the moaners?.Well must go and feed my rabbits now and say good night to them all, hope you all have a nice evening where ever you are:-D Ron

365 days (11/8/11) ago my head went bang cutting kindling with my youngest son before we went fishing, I'm still here and trying like us all to get on with the new me wow have I been lucky.Think I might go fishing tomorrow somehow giving the grim reaper the finger will feel good:devil: Ron

Good evening all, well I have just done my first week back at work (four days only) almost a year to the day after my explosion it all went great I was a bit nervous the first day but it all went off without a hitch although my reversing was a bit iffy the first few times:lol:I felt a bit stressed the first two days and gave myself a headache but nothing that a few pain killers couldn't cure:biggrin: The company had me collecting logs in the forests and taking them to various sawmills so I always managed to finish my days in the forest it was really good to be out in the country in the peace and quiet again.I start again on Sunday this week through till Thursday I know I've said it before but I really can't believe how incredibly lucky my family and I have been, I am so ****** happy to be back to work again and I never thought I would say that:lol:. Ron

Good afternoon everybody, the the sun is out the sky's blue for a change and I passed my driving assessment and start my job on Monday:biggrin:. This is the start of the 2nd phase of my life I cant believe how excited I am just like a kid again I didn't think I would ever be doing this again its been the hardest fought year of my life and I know that I'm still going to get those SAH day's but they are getting further and further apart now. I know that I have been incredibly lucky to get this far after my explosion I hope the new me will still enjoy the truck driving, I'm now going to go out and sit in the sun and make a start on my 2nd litre of water for the day,hope the sun is shining where you are. Ron

Good morning all thank you Michelle,Dawn S,Win & Kris for your kind words. I am going for a job interview on Thursday afternoon ( to try and get my old job back) I am just going to go for gold and go straight back in to it and see how I get on providing I am successful at the interview and pass the driving assessment . Cant wait to get back on the road again . Kris the reversing thing is not as difficult as it looks once somebody explains the method to you, even after all these years I still mess it up now and again and their is always somebody watching you when it goes wrong:lol:. Ron

Hi Ann e, I had my SAH last August I didn't have a shunt put in though I got my licences back last week including my HGV if you give DVLA a call and get the medical section I found them to be quite helpful. Good luck

Hi all, had the best I've had for a long time now I got a letter from the DVLA on Saturday to tell me that I can get back to driving again not only cars but I got my truck licence back as well:biggrin: . Now all I have to do is to get a go in a truck again to see if I can still do it or not I think I should be ok but I'd like to have a drive before I get a job just to see how I feel. Having a great day Ron

Good afternoon all, thank you for your kind words of encouragement,its funny how the good news seems to make me feel better for a few days then I slowly start to feel the way I was before I got the good news it's as if the good news seems to some how wear off:confused:. Thanks again Ron:-D

Good evening everybody, just got some good news last week my neurosurgeon has decided not to put more coils in my head but to give me another MRI scan in February 2013 to have another look and make sure all is still well:biggrin:.Cant tell you how happy hearing that has made me tears of joy for a change:lol:. Ron

Hi Paul And welcome to the site I to am a HGV driver I had my explosion August 2011 I am now nearing the end of the road to find out if I am getting my licence's back only another 6-8 weeks to go till DVLA make their decision, I've got more than my fingers crossed . I use a lot of chillies and tobasco sauce in my food now to try and make my food taste some way to normal ( my wife does this for me when she's cooking ) . Take care best wishes to you and your girlfriend Ron

Hi, I also get a feeling of pressure on my temples also some days I get a sore face and it feels as though my face is twitching I've even gone to a mirror to look:confused: all these things seem to come when I'm tired and have over done things a wee bit. Ron

Thank you all for the very positive and encouraging words I try not to spend to much time worrying about it but I'm sure as you all know easier said than done sometimes, it wouldn't be as bad if you got the phone call and a date at the same time it's the waiting that's the worst. Thank you again you have put my and my wife's mind at rest . Ron

Good evening all I haven't been on for a while been a bit down recently, just got the results of my six month scan from my neurosurgeon he phoned me to tell me it looks like I'll have to go in for more coils to be fitted in me head he is just waiting for a second opinion (be about a month till I here). Not the news I wanted to here I must admit but better safe than sorry eh, but I cant find out what the recovery time is for a second coiling and don't know how much it will put my progress back:confused: can anybody help with any info about the expected recovery time from a second coiling in the same place without the explosion this time. Ron

Hi all Like so many others I cannot claim on my insurance, but I did find that I did have a premium waiver clause after 26wks so now I pay no more premiums till I go back to work. As Tesco says every little helps:-D so its worth checking all insurance policies for this. Ron

Hi all I haven't been on for a while, thank you all for your advice and best wishes but I've been checking and it turns out my employer can terminate my employment after 26wks as I am "medically unfit and cannot carry out my duties" unfortunately they are a haulage contractor and until DVLA make a decision about my HGV licence I'm in limbo. It has taken a few days to get my head round what they have done to me it knocked me for six to be honest but on the mend now. On the upside I now have a date for my six month scan I go for it on 14/2, how long do you normally have to wait to be told the results?, I am having my scan in Inverness and my coiling was done in Edinburgh I think they must send the image down the www so their will be no point in asking them in Inverness. Thanks Ron

Hi all Had a good day yesterday I was actually out in the garden with my wife cutting up some logs with my chainsaw I managed about 45 mins and felt really good with myself, the handed it over to my wife and sons and went in for a rest feeling good:-D. Then I got a phone call from the "lady in HR" with the company I work for telling me that on the 11th of February my employment was being terminated, when I asked why it was because in my T&C's it states that if you are absent from work for more than 26 weeks out of 52 weeks then the company can terminate you employment. And without me being able to give them a date that I will be returning to work then that was what they were doing:shocked:. Talk about feeling that like you've been kicked in the teeth when I said that I was told that my job would be there for me when I was ready to return she said they didn't realise that I would take so long to get better,but when I am ready to go back to work that I should give them a call and if there was work available then I could have my old job back:devil:. The trouble is where I live their isn't a lot of choice for work no matter how much I want to tell them to ram their job where the sun don't shine I have to bite my lip,isn't Scottish business so caring? or maybe it's just the one I work for:-D Ron

Hi SarahLou, just had a look at the MedicAlert site and have ordered myself a dog tag, never thought about this kind of thing before but it really makes sense to have something like this just in case cos as we all know you never know what's round the next corner.My 20yr old son also suggested that I get the MedicAlert logo tattooed on my arm a step to far I think:lol: Take care Ron

Hi all Well I went to see my Neuropsychologist yesterday and had a good talk with her which has done me a lot of good I feel a lot better now sort of re-arranged a few things in my head,trying not to dwell to much on who I was but more on who I am now. She gave me a copy of her book titled "Brain Book" by Dr Louise Blackmore (you can find it through Google) which I found very good it has some good info in it and it explains a lot at least it did for me, my wife read it also and she said it cleared a few things up for her about my behaviour since my explosion.Thanks to all of you that suggested that I speak to someone, I have another appointment to see her again in March thanks again. Ron:-D

Hi Win Couldn't remember on my own had to check on the web Louise got it right it was the Crystals, still singin it today Ron

Hi Winbe143 Thanks for that one been out in my shed cant seem to get that tune out of my head now now I'm trying to remember who had a hit with it (without using the net), I'll let you know when I remember that's something I miss I used to have a pretty good memory for music maybe it'll come back.Thanks for the tune:-D Ron

Hi all Thanks for all the good advice,I have been feeling a lot better the last few days and I have made an appointment to see a Neuropsychologist to have a chat at the end of the month think that it will do me a bit of good. Ron

Hi all I miss the old me,trying hard to get used to the new me, I don't miss all the repeats on the TV because cant remember what I've seen before:lol: I miss driving my truck and driving round the country I don't miss being away from my family all week I miss driving my car and being able to take my family out I don't miss having to listen to my kids heavy metal/rap music played at brain bustin volume ( cos it gives dad a sore head) Ron

Hi Mary & Merry Christmas I to have taste problems I now have chilli's on most foods now my wife cooks with chilli's a lot for me, if not its hot sauce I dont mind this really as i love spicy foods.Hope yours improves. Ron

Hi Michelle I do tell my wife and kids that I love them but sometimes its just the look in their faces that gets to me.I hope I can keep on trucking but I'm still waiting to find out if I'll get my licences back so I can return to my job, I think I'm worrying about that to I try not to but its my lively-hood. Thanks Ron

Well I was feeling good, now the past few days I feel as though I have gone backwards ( I know this can happen) but I'm not sleeping much as my tinnitus has come back with a vengeance so I feel tired during the day I find myself snapping at my wife and kids I try so hard not to but it just seems to come out all wrong.Some days I could just sit and cry not very good for a 58 yr old truck driver. How many times can you say sorry for behaving like an ass to the women you love?:confused:. I know that this is all part of the recovery post explosion but its very hard some days isn't it? I know I've got off really lucky compared to some off you guys out there, some times I wish I had an external scar that people could see and not just the invisible internal ones that we all have that nobody can see to let them know that all is not well with my world. I don't mean to sound as though I am feeling full of self pity far from it I have a very positive outlook on life, its just so very frustrating sorry to ramble on I just needed to talk;-) Ron