My partner has just discovered your site after googling the same title above..and I just need to speak to other people in same position as I feel my life that I once had is disappearing.
I suffered an SAH last May ( 8 months or so ago) and spent nearly 5 weeks in hospital, 2 of those on ICU, I know I was so lucky to have arrived home with not too many "defects", some short term memory problems, balance not as it was, cognitive problems etc and over these last 8 months we have exercised daily to correct balance, have walked, firstly with the help of those ramblers sticks but now unaided,
Have downloaded lots of brain training apps and could see that I was beginning to start feeling like my old self of 63 years.,
But in the last 3/4 weeks I have been suffering from deep, dark thoughts about worrying if I may die, as I wake up feeling so low and ill, even though I realise that I'm not in physical pain, I'm unable to come to any decisions about anything in our lives, we were planning to make changes in the next couple of years but I just don't have any interest in anything.
I feel useless and I know we are so lucky to be in a financial position not to worry about working again, but all my thoughts seem to spiralling down.
I eventually went to the doctors 10 days ago and she said I was suffering reactive depression, similar to ptsd, and I am now on a low med, I noticed a slight change and felt quite uplifted two days ago but have dropped back.
Having read so many of your posts I realise that this is unique for me but normal for us all, just wanted to tell my story and know that someone out there can say that there is light at the end of the tunnel ??