Hi all,
I honestly cannot believe that an entire year has gone by. It's the strangest feeling. It's difficult to remember a time before SAH I question sometimes just making sure, God did all of this just really happen in a year?! An obviously the answer is yes. Yes the absolutely mental year that you really couldn't write has just happened, and it's happened to you!
I was thinking the other day how funny it is that your body just adapts to new situations, or rather how your mind and emotions adapt to the new way of living. At 17 I have simply adapted, I think that's a good way of putting it. It's a healthy way of looking at it too. To adapt is to make something suitable for a new use, well I'd say that sums up anyone recovering from SAH, you've modified yourself into something that's suits you that works with you. I really like me why would I let anything I enjoy or love become redundant, what's the point in that!
I said this time last year that the world survival scared me, that it hit home sometimes. I don't see it like that anymore because there were no whatif's I survived, we all survived! The more I think about it and talk and discuss it with people, the more I realise just how utterly beautiful it is. With survival comes living. People ask you what your plans are for the future, where do you see yourself in the next few years and i can't help thinking to myself just soaking up everything that comes my way, every Single experience.
This all sounds a bit dramatic when you look at it, but that's not want it to be. I know how easy it is to get annoyed with yourself because you can't remember that one thing, the headache that meant an extra hour in the dark, the appointment you could really do with out especially on your birthday!
But I also think that anyone reading this, if anyone reads this or gets to the end of this very long speech, should really just remember how far they've come, whether SAH is something new in your life or something that's been a part of it for years, you survived, and I'd say that is something to extremely proud of, because I know I am.