It's been just over two months since my PMSAH. My neuro said the cause is a mystery but that I'm in The best case scenario under the PMSAH bucket, and life would be normal within 4-6 weeks.
Well, what a bunch of rubbish!
Two months may not seem like a long time, but it has felt like years. Recently, the reality of what happened has finally hit me and i can't stop myself from being emotional everyday. I've never cried so much in my life! Whenever i feel pressure in my head, I panick. My head wont stop ringing and it;s been almost two straight months without improvement. In fact, it seems to get worse. I've got a few sounds rattling around with me at all times and I can never relax. Made the mistake of blowing my nose too hard and popping my ears, and the sounds actually got louder and never went back down!
I'm holding onto my doctor's reassurance that the ringing will stop -- "you are young, and this is normal -- brain injuries and ringing in the ears go hand-in-hand". I wonder if the bleed caused a loss in my hearing but my audiogram was normal.
Just in need of some positivity right now. I feel like such a drain on my family and my partner for how emotional I've been. It's not easy on them, either. Normally, I'm the one who has life together, but I've been the biggest mess and i don't know yet how to take back control of my life.
I'm supposed to return to work next month and right now, that seems like the last possible thing I have the energy to do.
grateful to have a site like this for support, and to read the stories of others who have overcome their own challenges. I hope to be part of that group soon.