Hi Everyone Im Marie im 37 and from West Yorkshire I suffered what I now know was an sah on 21st December 2007.
I'd had a perfectly normal crazy christmas shopping day and was preparing tea for my husband and 4 children as later in the evening myself and husband had planned to go out to a former works christmas do. Slamming the door on my drier I had the most excruciating headache as though someone had hit me with a shovel and thought at first id got a shock from the drier, but within 15 minutes I couldnt speak couldnt hold up my own body weight and certainly couldnt communicate with anyone to say what was wrong besides being violently sick. My quick thinking husband realised this was something serious and phoned an ambulance. When the ambulance arrived the paramedic lady was quite rude and kept asking how much id had to drink boy do I wish thats all it was! At the first hospital I was taken to they did a scan where it was found id hadan sah and transferred me to Leeds General Intensive care where our neurosurgery unit is. I must have been unconscious for quite a while because I just remember coming round on christmas eve to my husband who hadnt moved from my bedside and he told me they had coiled the bleed that day, not that I actually understood what he was telling me. Christmas day was hard, all my kids came to see me with presents theyd bought and I remember all i wanted to do was cuddle them all and go home with them, yet I couldnt even get off the bed or communicate with them because it was complete gobbledegook coming out of my mouth. On new years eve I was allowed home. My family have been fantastic my husband and daughter were doing the housework and cooking in the early days and when my husband returned to work my daughter took over the role of 'mum'.
Its nearly 4 months on now and i am struggling sometimes to come to terms with whats happened. Sometimes I have good days but on the bad ones I cant seem to shake off the feeling of doom. I seem to cry a lot at the most stupid of things and get a bit over paranoid with the slightest of twinges in my head, although my headache is still quite bad come early evening and mostly Im in bed by 8pm to try and relieve this.
I had a small bleed in my left shortly after the sah which has resulted in like a spider web of blood blocking my sight and am booked for surgery at St James Hospital on 15th May. Hopefully I will feel a lot better emotionally when I can see properly.
I try to tell people just what I feel like but I think the majority of people think that because they cant visibly see anything wrong with me then I must be perfectly fine. If only they knew.