quokkagirl

Hi Don't be afraid of the MRI - I'm a big girl too - like BIG - and it is quite tight but if you just decide that you are there - that you have to go through with it and get your mind-set right you'll be absolutely fine. Nothing to fear whatsoever - it is just a noisy clanking tube and you have a mirror to see what's going on. Be brave and ask your hubby to meet you when you come out just in case you feel a bit shaken. But you won't be stirred I promise. XXXXXXX

Thank you all so much. Not sure I have the answer still but I'm getting there with your help. It's good to hear that I am at least normal. No insurances of that nature on the mortgage - I stretched to get one and it's as much as I can do to pay it on full time wages (result of a recent divorce). You are all doing so well - well done. Just had my six month follow-up angio yesterday. I found it fascinating to watch the procedure and all seems stable and the new anni isn't growing thank god. I think I am coming to the conclusion that I am going to have to listen to my body not my brain and try to get all the help I can from benefits. I'm holding off at the moment until I am forced to make a decision. I will let you know whether I jump or whether I am pushed, lol. Keep well all of you and thanks again. Will keep you posted and if anyone wants to talk, well, I'm better at helping others than helping myself. Much love Quokkagirl.

Hi all. I am a newly coiled (SEVENTEEN COILS!!) unruptured aneurysm with another lurking untreated. I have been back at work for 7 weeks, gradually increasing my hours following the op in November. I have never in my life felt so tired and jaded. My weekends are spent sleeping, crying, grumpy and not feeling the benefits of any rest I get. My nights are filled with huge exhausting dreams and the feeling of pressure and sheer effort required just to function is causing me to make mistakes and go up lots of what I call 'verbal cul-de-sacs' both at work and at home. I gained a stone almost immediately after the op and although I gave up smoking, I am ashamed to say that to improve my temperament I am now smoking a little again. It does help me get through the day but won't help my long term prognosis of course. I want some answers - I feel it's probably time to listen to my head and body and say it's going to be better for me to be part time at work or to give up completely. I manage a cancer helpline and national cancer charity and it takes an awful lot out of me. I know that life is too short to waste and I find it hard now to give work my full care and attention - I am too busy holding myself together. The option of part time might be available to me but I live alone and have a mortgage!!! How do I get round that one financially? I don't strictly need mobility help or direct care so I can't see me getting DLA which might have helped, but I do need to care for myself . The alternative is trying to get pensioned off at work but I will still have my mortgage to pay. I am 53. Has anyone any advice?