Tina,
I cant thank you enough for your response. I will certainly try again to talk with him. And I can talk with his Primary care physician since he is mine too and he knows everything that has gone on. And I need to go talk to my psychologist as well to help me better address what is going on.
I just want him happy. Honestly, some times I get angry missing some of what was, but then I feel guilty. Damn, he is alive, he loves me, I love him, we have a home, we are safe and most of the time I like him...lol. And he is the strongest man I know❤️
I reread what I wrote last night and I thought, wow, how selfish and ungrateful. I do believe some of this is due to the isolation of the past year...but good news, first vaccines for both of us tomorrow. And after both vaccines we head back to our favorite vacation spot almost 5 years to the day he had the SAH. Our happy place❤️
I know he gets tired and needs his quiet time. Who doesn’t? I see it in his face sometimes when we are out like it’s too much for him and it breaks my heart. And yes noise...especially noisy rooms.
I wish he would talk about how he is feeling, but that didn’t happen before and I am a heads down, what do we need to do to get through this personality. This level of communication is hard for both of us. I think my reaching out was looking for reassurance that it is ok to feel frustrated, or sad, or lonely. Thank you for letting me know this is normal and real. Will be making some calls come Monday.
This site kept me sane the first year after the event. I may not have posted because it was too raw and I was being me (needed to handle everything) to just make it through. Thank you again Tina.