I have read some of the stories here of what many people have gone through and the strength they have had to continue. I am so grateful to have found this site and community with help, support and friends.
My name is Alison and I live in Devon. On the 20th December I bombed up the motorway some 350 miles to the hospital where my sister had been rushed with terminal cancer. We were all told to get there asap to say our goodbyes. It was a month from her diagnosis. She was in A&E. I made it within plenty of time but didn't get to say goodbye at the end because I then had an sah. I thought it might have been because of the shock/stress? I was taken from that hospital to Addenbrookes in Cambridge where they did a CT and Angiogram but havent found anything. I have an appointment with the consultant in a week's time.
I probably realise that I have two things to come to terms with. My sister's death and my sah. I am returning to work tomorrow part time. Mostly because I can't bear to be on my own and think about things but also because I need things to be normal again. I cry very easily now and am pretty emotional. My head hurts and I feel sick sometimes if I do too much. I have had my partner with me since it happened and tomorrow he is going away for a week with work. I am dreading being on my own. I don't want to tell him how scared I am of being alone. Still, perhaps it is confidence I need which I may well get going back to work.
I smoked right up to the day this happened, so I havent smoked since then (the memory of not being able to walk or talk is toooooo scary!), I used to drink quite a lot socially but have only had a couple of drinks since the sah and it just doesn't taste the same!!
So, this is me saying hello.
Alisonx