Hi, I had my SAH last November. I remember finding this site and trying to post my story but at the time, I found it hard to even write about it. I suppose it is a good sign that I can do that now without becoming anxious or crying! What a scary experience. I remember having such a major pain in my head and just not knowing what it was but feeling so scared. It all went in slow motion for me. My husband put me to bed with ibruprofen and an eye mask! I just couldn't bare the light. That was Saturday and by Monday, I thought this is not going away so I did go to the doctors. I was sent to casualty with suspected meningitis which I did not think I had. The casualty doctor said 'It could be a bleed on the brain, but people don't usually survive that.....pop and they are gone' were her helpful words............I felt much better after that, lol! Proved her wrong anyway. ; )
It was found to be a ruptured aneurysm. I was taken to the National hospital in London where I was looked after by the experts. Felt much safer then. Can't speak highly enough of all the nurses and consultants. I was in hospital for two months as the coiling wasn't successful as a clot formed. The threat of a stroke became the major issue then. To put it very simply, my consultant said it was a waiting game to see if the burst aneurysm and the second one that they found very near to the first, would heal themselves. She didn't want to risk the clipping as I had made such a good recovery so far. I'm very fortunate. They did disappear. My own little miracle, I was told.
During that time, I read a lot of other people's stories on this site and it helped me immensely that others were so positive.
Trouble is, I am finding it hard to move on. I feel so different now, mentally and physically. I went back to work as a teacher, after six months at home, and the expectation was that I would just fit back in again. I'm finding that I'm just too tired to cope. I'm now off sick again after only two weeks of term. I know I'm very, very lucky. But I feel different to before the SAH and I don't think I'm coping with that feeling very well. I just wonder if that is normal..........and what help other people might have had.