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First let me apologise for this post. It isn’t a happy post, but I need somewhere to rant where people will understand. It’s been 4 1/2 years since my haemorrhage was coiled and I have been through various CBT and OT treatments, as well as a stint on the anti-depressant Sertraline (because apparently my fatigue was due to depression!!). I’m angry (and frustrated) because despite explaining to my family, employers and Doctors, they don’t truly understand the fatigue. They try and are understanding to some extent. I’m sure we all know what the fatigue is like when it hits and I hate it. It makes me feel inadequate, lazy and useless. I think I am still trying to be the person I was before the haemorrhage and it’s starting to really hit that I’m not and probably won’t ever be. I’m currently giving work most of my energy (in order to pay the bills) but it’s leaving me with very little for my home and personal life. It’s like the haemorrhage has robbed me of this. Perhaps my current feelings are part of the acceptance process. I hope so. All that said, I know things could have been a lot worse for me, so I do count myself lucky. Also, having read through many posts here, there are some very brave people and I’m hoping I can draw some strength and inspiration from that. Thank you for giving me the space to get some of these feelings out.
It's now 7 weeks since my SAH and I have had good advice from my previous post but I don't like me at the moment. Yes fatigue, headaches, weepy forgetful and no energy but this monster of a person who emerges with anger is awful and comes from nowhere. I think it emerges at its worst if I am having a conversation and quite rightly someone speaks and I forget what I was saying so I get cross for being interrupted. Also I get angry with my wonderful hubby for almost nothing when he is doing his best and today when lovely son popped in to see me I shouted at him for nothing and can't remember now what for. They are very understanding but I hate why this anger comes and it's not who I am. Carolyn