Initially when I was in hospital after surgery I felt fine as I did before it happened, a bit like I didn't get why I was still there once I had left the critical care ward...all that changed the day I came home and the main road where I live looked very different (new fences gardens had grown) since then I've found myself feeling generally confused and a bit lost for lack of a better description.
I've never been a big sleeper and it definitely worse now as I never feel sleepy regardless of how knackered I am my eyes won't stay closed when I'm in bed, resting during the day isn't going to happen unless I'm on the verge of falling asleep I can't sleep when it's light outside.
Returning to work isn't at the front of my mind at the minute I was unemployed when I had my sah and best I can hope for is a min wage agency job in a warehouse, I can't sit in an interview and say I can work, I'd be lying, I might be able to get to work anything more than that is an unknown I can just about cope with a half hour dog walk and a 5 min walk to the shop in the same day.
I get that a sah is a serious thing to go through, I'd never heard of a sah before I had mine and I'm unsure what to compare it to. I'll absolutely agree with the fatigue a short walk too far will render me a speed bump on the couch for a few hours after. The "okay, what now?" is exactly how I feel, like I'm waiting for something but I don't know what or when it's going to happen.
Reading isn't for me being dyslexic I can read through a paragraph or so and then it's like staring at a word search.
My memory is a weird one, I can remember places, people and all that it's more a problem of forgetting what I'm doing, like what did I come to the shop for? Or why can't I figure out how to count the £9 I had in my hand, I counted it before I went and knew what cash I had when i went and I was drawing a blank. Singing isn't for me either I sound kind of like Barry white after a throat punch haha I live in a flat all my neighbours would complain.