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I am really sorry for posting again, you must be getting fed up of me lol. Six weeks yesterday since my SAH and,my headache today is just not letting up, quite painful today and I'm dizzy so I'm getting myself a bit worked up. I wish I could just have one day where I feel relaxed x

Thanks Linda and Win. It is indeed my first morning at home and was my first night last night. Slept quite well despite feeling rotten. Been up since the crack of dawn and done a bit too much I think as shattered and headache now. Kettle is on Win, welcome anytime hun xx

Thank you so much winter and nic. Have suffered anxiety for a while so had every symptom you have listed, it totally sucks. Well todays the day I go home with my kiddies, going to be tough as by early evening I feel exhausted and ill but looking forward to getting back into some sort of routine with the children. Thank you all again for your helpful replies. I really appreciate it. Lisa xx

Hi Bev, its horrendous isn't it, six weeks tomorrow since my Sah and its been six weeks of hell, worry, tears. I feel like I am never going to be me again. My little one is 22 months and I also have a 13 year old. Everytime he slept I would be in tears thinking I was almost taken from him and his sister and still might be. Roll on the time to when I'm more comfortable with and accepting of what has happened xx

Part of me is looking forward to being back home. Went home for a few hours yesterday with little fella, tidied up and played with my son and felt rotten all night grrrr. Saw consultant cpl days ago and he has told me that rebleeds are rare (which was my fear), I have no more annis and he has more chance of having one than me having another. Just need to get over my anxiety and stop thinking the worst all the time, I'm sure I will get there. Thank you all xx

Great advice and the sort I would dish out myself. I'm normally the one everyone comes to with problems and am there,for everyone and this ****** thing seems to have completely destroyed my confidence. Of course everything you say is true and I hope that I can relax once alone. Thank you all xx

Thank you all. Im not worried about the coping part at all, just if something happened to me whilst alone with him, I'm sure as time passes that fear will fade (I hope so anyway). Part of me wants to be back on my own home with my kids, I'm just really scared xx

How did you cope when you were first at home alone after the sah? My sister is going home on Saturday so I will be going home with my children and the thought of being alone all day with the toddler is really scaring me in case something happens. I know I'm going to feel the same the first time I take him out on my own. How did you feel? Am I being irrational? x

Thank you again for your comforting reply. I am doing all the less strenuous stuff like drawing, reading etc but being a boy he likes to climb and dive on me lol x

Really sorry to moan on but feel I have nobody else to moan on to. Have posted about back and chest pain since getting out of hospital. Well on Sunday the pain in my lung everytime I breathed was horrendous, I'm in agony. Doc sent me back to a&e yesterday morn and I was there until almost 9 pm, again checked for clots which I haven't got. Now got to see a specialist to try and find out what's going on. I want to cry, worrying enough about the Sah without this. I'm constantly in agony and my poor little tot doesn't understand why I can't throw him around as normal. Lisa x

Thank you all so much for your replies, I really appreciate it. Got up this morning and it's mainly my neck and back/lung again, Im so sick of this pain. I dont see the point in going to gp again as I am just told it's muscular. I've noticed that my headaches are getting worse lately too, all this isnt good for my nerves lol. I suppose sitting worrying about it will make it feel worse but it's hard not to, I think everything is a sign that something bad is going to happen, I will be so glad when these fears go, they are ruling me at the moment. Every sharp pain I get in head or eye a feeling of terror takes over me, I hate it so much

Yes great idea, think I will because I will also probably forget everything. Thank you xx

Thanks for your reply. It's hard to describe the pain but it's really bad and it's there all the time but worse if I move and when I take a deep breath. Just confused how it eased in my chest but has come back so strongly if it is muscular. My GP has been lovely and because he knows how anxious and scared I am since the SAH he has been seeing me twice a week to check how I am. He does know about it and thinks it's a muscular thing because I lost a lot of weight in hospital (dont know what that has to do with it). Im seeing Consultant next week so will ask him about it along with a million other things to try and ease my mind a little. I cant imagine myself ever living a normal life without being filled with fear. It's just so awful xx

Hi all, it's the panicker here, hope you are all well. After coming out of hospital following my SAH I started suffering chest pain so dr sent me to a&e where I was x-rayed and bloods taken checking for a blood clot and was told it was clear and it was muscular. The pain then went through to the top of my back, shoulder and breathing, moving really hurt my back and chest so went to my own gp again who also said he thinks it's muscular. This has been going on for a few weeks now and the pain is terrible, it eased from my chest but stayed in my back but have got up this morning and my chest is really painful again and down my arm. Did anybody suffer anything similar in the early days after their SAH? Also feeling really dizzy today, it seemed to ease a little the last couple of days and now it's back with a vengeance xx

I want to thank you all so much for your replies, it is really reassuring and appreciated. I ended up at A&E yesterday as I felt really ill, my headaches have been worse last couple of days and I also have really bad pain on the left side of my back/lung area which they said is muscular, how I do not know as I havent hardly done anything for the last four weeks lol. I have been suffering with my chest and top of back since haemorrhage, very strange. As I suffered from anxiety before the SAH I am awaiting an appointment for CBT but god knows how long it will take to come through. I have started Anti D's as I am willing to try anything to make me feel a little better about this whole thing. Anyway just popped on to thank you all, dont get on the lap top much lately and cant log in on my phone for some reason xx

Hi all, it's four weeks today since my SAH and as per my previous post you will probably all know that Im not coping very well right now. Just a question regarding the after sensations, I suffer bad headaches/eye pain, dizziness, nausea etc since the SAH but last night I had a new sensation, it was a really weird feeling in my head that went down my neck into the top of my back and really scared me. Im unsure as to when it would be wise to go to a&e because obviously Im very panicky at the moment and would move in there until all this was over if I could lol. Im going off the pain side of things, if I got a severe pain again then that would be the time to go to the hospital. Also why do I feel like I've got a ticking bomb inside my head waiting to explode? The nurse said to me that now I have had the coiling I have as much chance as her of having another SAH but why cant I believe this, why am I constantly thinking it's going to happen again or something else is going to happen as a result of the SAH. I just want to feel normal and stop all this worrying. It's taking over me completely. Im under the doctors for this but it's not helping at the moment. Sorry just need to write down how Im feeling xx

Thank you for your replies everybody, I really appreciate it. Such early days for me that I'm having a very hard time dealing with this,still. I'm suffering terrible dizziness and feel rotten. I haven been given five days of diazepam off the Dr to try to calm me a little and help me sleep. I am just so down and scared right now that I'm finding it hard to see a way out. Sorry for such a depressing post x

Could i also ask if you suffered from dizziness afterwards, i seem to be dizzy a lot of the time along with the headaches xx

Thank you all, hopefully one day i will be where you all are, having accepted this, moving on and helping others xx

Thank you all so much for your replies, so kind of you all. I actually read your post about the children earlier Daffodil as I am worrying myself sick about them. I've gone from spending 24 hours a day alone with them caring for them to hardly doing anything for them and it's so hard as you will all know yourselves x

Thank you for the reply Penny, I really appreciate it. I saw my GP yesterday and he is putting me on some anti depressants to try and help me. Its just so hard, was breastfeeding my 20 month old which has been snatched away and is still upsetting him, just doing the simplest of things with him is so hard at the moment. Just want our life back.

Hi everybody.. I suffered a Subarachnoid Heaemorrhage almost three weeks ago and had coils inserted, I have been home from hospital almost a week. I am a single mum with a 13 year old and a 20 month old and am staying at my dad's at the moment with the children. I am not coping very well at all, I am so scared and anxious and feel so alone. Can anybody with any experience give me any information on recovery etc. I am always suffering terrible headaches which scares me, thinking Im going to have another one or something, I keep feeling weakness in my arms and legs and I feel terrible. I just want to feel normal and go home with my children. I am feeling so deperessed and scared so would really appreciate anything from people who have had the same experiences. Thank you x