Hi Vivien
Your photo is lovely, and most of the comments you make strike home with me. I had my SAH last September and find even writing this and making sense takes a lot of effort.I agree we are different on the outside to what is going on inside. I get so frustrated that my life is very different now, that I have to stop because of tiredness, it stops me, I try and fight it but I can't defeat it. I have just had a good week, full time at work, looked after my little granddaughter for a while on Thursday after work, and have actually done some housework today, although I hate that anyway, so the easiest one not to do.Next week could be the absolute opposite and I will cry myself through the week feeling worthless.One day to the next is a mystery till it happens.My short term memory is dreadful too, luckily my 'automatic' brain works well, as my job relies on it, although in speech I lose words all over the place. It is great to hear that 4 years on you do have lots of things which have improved, gives us all hope. Anyway I sincerely hope the botox works, and thanks for your words.