Lin-lin Posted October 13, 2011 Share Posted October 13, 2011 Thought I’d update you with my progress and my attempt to return to work. This thread may be of more use to people who have left their original place of work and are attempting to try something new. My previous employers could not offer me a phased return after my SAH and requested me back in less than six months. I did not have the emotional energy to disagree and I handed in my resignation and drew a line in the sand. I still think it was the best decision for me. Over the last fourteen months, I have been working as a volunteer at the Citizens Advice Bureau on Tuesdays and Fridays. In February 2011, I extended my responsibilities and began working Thursday mornings at the Shaw Trust too. I now feel able to progress further again and because I intend to sell my house (although not up for sale yet) and move in with my boyfriend who lives around 45 minutes away; I need to plan to move my voluntary work to where he lives, which is a rural area. I have approached Sure Start, which is a local authority project which basically helps vulnerable families in our communities. I hope that there will be better employment opportunities for me as the local authority, statistically, is a better employer of people with disabilities / health conditions. I also feel very passionate about issues such as child poverty, and although this is not exclusively the remit of Sure Start, it is a big part of it. I started my first day of training today. I have nine more weeks to go. The training is on Thursdays 9.30 am – 12.30 pm which makes it easier for me to attend. Unfortunately, I have had to stop my work at the Shaw Trust which is sad. The training venue is around 15 miles away, so my father gave me a lift there and back. This was wise, because I was anxious about starting, which obviously depletes energy levels. I took fruit and water with me to keep my energy levels topped up. (I will plan things a bit better next time and take flapjacks which are good ‘fuel food!’) The first day was enjoyable, but I have needed to sleep all afternoon. I was exhausted. Partly nervous energy, but the process of new venue / people / information took its toll too. I usually meet some friends on Thursdays, but I cancelled plans yesterday foreseeing that my first day was going to be tiring. I expect it will get easier. I think I have a better handle on my circumstances which I accept may be permanent in nature. I, of course, accept that improvements may be seen in the following years to come, but I do not think they will be revolutionary! I am ok with this. I believe I can have a fulfilling life as long as I chose what I do with my time wisely. I may not be able to do much as before, but if I make life choices that bring emotional rewards; despite doing less, I can still feel enriched. In basic terms, I think my brain is ‘inefficient’ in the way it uses energy. My brain seems to burn up too much mental energy in circumstances which others may not find stressful, but it leaves me unable to do as much as others. I value my health and mental well being enormously, and so have decided to find a life / work balance which my brain can cope with; rather than impose a way of life upon my brain which is not possible. I will be overjoyed to commence voluntary work for the Sure Start and it remains to be seen what the employment opportunities will be in the months to come. Lynne Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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