Hi John. I'm sure it must feel strange to not remember anything - however, sometimes I think you're better off!! Although I told my story in detail in that other thread, the truth is the first few days are quite hazy and there are big blanks. In fact, yesterday a friend came to visit, and my daughter kept coming out with more stuff that I didn't remember AT. ALL ! Apparently, I appeared totally awake and oriented, and answered questions correctly etc, but I don't remember all that.
On another note, my mother had a stroke 4 years ago and was in hospital 6 weeks before she got a place in a rehab hospital (this was in France, and the rehab place was amazing!). She doesn't remember the hospital at all, even though she seemed to recognise us and "communicated" with us. Her first memory is of the day she was taken from the hospital to rehab. I think she's made her peace with that, especially when we tell her she was in nappies and had c.diff etc. It was an awful time, and I'm glad she doesn't remember it.
I hope you get more answers, but I hope even more that you will be able to make your peace with what happened to you. We must remember we've been through life-changing events and anyone who hasn't been there can't understand. Luckily, we have BTG, right??!
Take care.