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Carl last won the day on November 30 2015

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About Carl

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  • Biography
    Married with three grown children.
    Discovering I am not the person I once was but hope to be a better person than I ever was. I think it is much harder on the ones who love me than it is on me.
  • Location
    Chilliwack, British Columbia, Canada
  • Interests
    Art, writing, woodwork
  • Occupation
    Meter Reader
  • SAH/Stroke Date
    May 12 2011

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  1. I am happy about people on here progressing! I am happy I can smile at silly things. I am happy I can make choices for myself. I am happy I am a grandpa and I got to see my first grandchild. There comes a time in every ones life when we learn that rainbows are not magic, When that happens we lose something. After the brain explosion many things seem magic again. The beauty of a fragrance, the joy of being able to filter out a single conversation in a room of many. The joy of silence, the joy of music, the joy of laughter. These are magical. They are milestones. I have come to the conclusion that just because I have reached a milestone, doesnt mean I will pass it. I may come back and visit it a few times, but what an incredible journey. "Not all who wander are lost"
  2. That is my new theme song. I am glad I have extended health. I went to see my doc last week and my BP was up. quite high, to the same levels as it was when I had my SAH. SO now I take a pill to reduce BP a water pill to help kidney function because of meds, two slow release beta blockers to reduce my headaches, a pill for diabetes and now a pill for cholesterol. I am sure if I lost about 70 pounds I would not need anywhere near the medication, well that and reduce my stress. The thing that bothers me is they just seem to treat the symptoms and not the cause. It has been two years since SAH and the only time I saw a neuro was 5 days in when they did angiography. He just said "no bleeding, good to go" Also the drugs all have similar side effects, drowsiness and fatigue. Oh except one, that is drowsiness and may interrupt sleep patterns and result in insomnia. Thats all we need, drowsy insomniacs. Still I am alive and kicking. I cant ask for any more than that, My name isnt Oliver Twist.
  3. Hi Daff, we are all so proud of you here. I think we all ride those waves, the physical and the emotional ones. I am starting to think more and more that our bodies and brains are like a car. Once you get a car repaired you listen for every slight noise and feel for vibrations and hesitations. Often they were there all along but now that one thing is fixed they become more apparent. There are many words of wisdom posted on the site. I often come here to prove that I am not alone, still sane and to see if others experience the same things I do. Other than the sane part I am fitting in quite well You are doing amazing!
  4. Got the results from the doppler exam and treadmill. The pain is not caused from any circulation problems. Not sure if it is SAH related. I dont think so since it really didnt hit till christmas. Not tax pain since I got money back. I hope they find what it is.
  5. Well the light at the end of the tunnel does shine, but some bozo at work keeps standing up and blocking it LOL Today I was all ready to continue with the task of running the CCTV in the sewer department. I was keen to get to work so I was the first one out of the office and down to the work bay. A few minutes later I was told to return to the office. I have a new job again. Now I go to every property, take a photograph of the property. Check on the condition of the meter box, dig the box out and expose the meter, examine the meter connections, check for backflow devices. Take another photograph and close things up. The dirt from the boxes gets put into buckets and dumped out later. There are almost 20,000 services to do so I will be doing this until I retire of until they change their minds again. Nothing like stability to help someone along with an SAH. I also found out that last week they installed a GPS into the old beat up truck they gave me, just so I dont stray too far. I love the trust! Now this may aggravate the average person, but as many of you are aware I am enduring a legal battle with my employer. I know, because of a statement made to me today, that I have ruffled some feathers and this is why they are doing it. I love being able to stand tall and smile..... I am also singing Afro American work songs, which really tends to annoy my bosses. Oh well. "Jump down turn around and pick a bale o' cotton, jump down turn around and pick a bale a day!"
  6. I am sorry to hear of all that is going on in your life at the moment. I am also very glad you found this site. We don't have all the answers, but we are very supportive. I really feel like many of the people here are an extended family. In times of hardship we need all the support we can get. If you need an ear to bend feel free to send messages, or if you think many people can help just ask in here. All the best, prayers and positive thoughts go out to you and yours.
  7. I am wondering if anyone else is curious about stress indicators I know my Blood Pressure is one. My irritability Fatigue Memory loss. I hope others will add to the list. Once it is more comprehensive we could make a poll.
  8. Macca is isn't just you! Like I said for some time I had great clarity and as situations change so does my state of mind and in turn my health. Fatigue has been a constant, but it rises and falls with stress. Sleep patterns are non existent, more random than a pattern. Morphing is a good description. I do lack motivation right now. I think if we were given the control over our lives that we require we could adapt much more readily. If you have ever seen one of those Japanese water features that scare deer away, that is how I feel. The water fills the bamboo till it tips off balance and then the bamboo knocks on the wood and makes a noise. For me the stress fills my brain till it reaches the tipping point. The problem is I don't always see the brain filling so much. So things are great till they spill over. If we had control at work we could perhaps regulate the stresses and find out what our stress indicators were. I am quite sure that we can do what we need to do, we just need to do it differently. Maybe we need to discover what our stress indicators are. I know none of us are alone and I know this thread is one of the most important ones on the forum. Many of us use it as an indicator of our recovery. Up and down that is the new norm for me
  9. I am glad that some of you are doing well at work and I am sympathetic with those who are struggling. I have been back to work for almost two years now. My SAH second anniversary is coming up next week. I was foolish enough to go back a full 40 hours a week from two months after the SAH. I don't recommend that to anyone. I find my condition with work rises and falls like the tides. There are days where I feel I am doing so well and have the clarity close to what I had pre SAH. When I first returned I struggled. I wasn't always aware that my struggles were caused by the SAH. For 9 months my employer had me doing my real job of meter reading. This wasn't an accommodation, the junior man who took over my job was off work due to an injury. I have done this job for over 20 years and the tasks are second nature. I found this allowed me to grow and recover much better than I had in previous months. Once the junior man came back to work I was moved to another job. For the last two months my job has changed yet again. I have been transferred to a CCTV inspection truck. Although each task I do is not difficult I find it extremely fatiguing to process the sequence of tasks required to complete the job. This is making me go to bed early again and my motivation has slipped. There has also been a wee bit of a work related legal crusade that I have been enduring. Although I am not the most educated person when it comes to law I am passionate about SAH. This has also created some stress. The light at the end of the tunnel that lifts my spirits and keeps me going is 55 working days till I retire. While I look forward to the change, I need to regain some focus to motivate myself in starting a semi retirement sign business. SO up and down.... which is good. if it was all up I wouldn't appreciate it, if it was all down... well we don't want that. Hang in there folks. Life is getting better daily
  10. I have been suffering leg pain since Christmas. but this is a year and a half after the SAH. Not sure if it is related. I go for a cardio doppler test next week. I will vote once I get the results
  11. Hi Gary, glad you found us. This site has done more for my recovery and understanding than anything else I was offered. There are no cut and dry answers to how long it takes. For myself I think I am always on the road to recovery. I am farther along today than I was yesterday still a little further to go. I have experienced all the symptoms you describe. You are not alone. I am coming up to the two year mark this month. My mind is much clearer than it was, my coping skills have improved. I do find stress is very counter productive. Little stress today that is irking me, but I will get over that. Rest, patience, lots of fluids, and ask lots of questions. The more I learned about my SAH the more I understood why I was feeling the way I was. There are wonderful people here who truly care. Do not be hard on yourself. You are a survivor and tough as nails, we all are. Headaches were annoying for me. I ended up changing some medication to reduce my blood pressure and that helped. Fluids really help. Sleep when you can. It takes a while to get the sleep rhythm back. I still struggle with sleep. As with all recoveries, pace yourself. Each day you are one step closer than you were.
  12. It is my understanding that A stroke is the sudden death of brain cells in a localized area due to inadequate blood flow. A clot can restrict the flow and kill the supply, A bleed can divert the flow of oxygen and also cut off the supply. Compounding that can be a pooling of the blood within the CSF causing pressure on parts of the brain also restricting the flow. I am quite aware that my brain was damaged by the bleed I had. No aneurysm but a definite bleed. I would defy anyone to tell me that there was no damage to various parts of my brain. I guess the point is, it doesn't matter what anyone calls it, we still suffer from the effects of the bleed. I do call it a stroke. so does my doctor. The neurosurgeon only saw me for the angiogram. and I have seen no specialists since then, so I guess the world has to take my word for it. if anyone asks tell them Carl said!
  13. I am 17 months in and fatigue wears me down. Thats like saying aging makes me old!. I was dealing with a bout of depression for the past few weeks but that seems to have lifted a little. Headaches have become part of my life, I seem to deal with them now by taking ibuprofin for migraines. I am fed up of the fatigue and the fact that my employer fails to see that as something my sick time could help. Still fighting the battle there. I also have the "fog" Loud noises get on my nerves. My wife was watching TV a few weeks ago and the commercials were twice as loud as the show. I asked her to turn down the television and she did. The next commercial came on and hit a nerve. I slammed my laptop shut and left the room. Grumpy Gus I should be called. I used to listen to classical music to sooth my nerves, but for safety reasons, they wont allow headphones at work any more. Luckily I am on the home stretch to retirement. The longest I will have to wait is 275 days, not that I am counting. I don't think I will ever be the same as I was but hopefully in some ways I am a better person. I know I am way cuter than I used to be
  14. I wasn't even told I wasn't supposed to drive. I think I am going to post another poll with more information. I drive now every day for work, I seem to be the designated driver at home. I have noticed several things. I tend to drive slower than I used to. I am much more cautious than I used to be. Some days the radio stays off I am totally confident driving in my town with familiar landmarks. I tend to not have quite the same confidence in unfamiliar surroundings. I do use a GPS when driving to new locations and I look over maps before setting off. The restrictions in Canada are no where near what they are in the UK. One of the things we have in Canada for new drivers is a graduated license system. Learners, New drivers and no restrictions. Other than the cash grab, I like the plan. Learners have a magnetic L on the car and New drivers have a magnet N on the car. There are limitations on New drivers. Like the number of passengers they can have and the times they drive. Learners must be accompanied by a licensed driver. If there were restrictions for SAH survivors I could see something similar to help them get back into the driver pool. I understand there are safety concerns and that is why there are restrictions but it is also my understanding that many survivors in the UK struggle to get their license back. We really do need to stick together and speak with a unified voice. "I am getting better and I can drive safely"
  15. I know each person is different in recovering and no one knows better than ourselves how we are coping. I am wondering how long it took to get back to driving.
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