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    Mum of two daughters, married living in leafy buckinghamshire. I had a Grade 4 SAH and presented with acute hydrocephalus in March 2012 when I was 39 but the bleed was was successfully coiled ( just a teeny neck left) and a drain fitted to balance fluids. I spent a long 7 weeks in hospital before discharge with a fair stint in HDU . Unfortunately my hydrocephalus reoccurred post the SAH and I was readmitted with flashing blues and ended up spending another 4 weeks eating the hospital food and having an adjustable shunt placed in July 2012.

    Now nearly four years on and life is more steady for me ,I'm back working part time for a large consulting firm in HR strategy, my neuro folk check my coiled and the second uncoiled anni yearly and despite there having been lots of bumps in the road with some grey days ( excuse the pun) throughout it all this forum has been a very helpful and reassuring place to come for help.

    I'm mostly enjoying some better days now and am now privileged to be a moderator. I also started blogging whilst in hospital having my shunt placed and still blog occasionally about my experience .
    If you want to read my more Personal account of my SAH recovery you can find it at http://popgoestifty.blogspot.co.uk/
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  1. Daffodil

    My wife 2 year scan

    Hi there. If your wife had coiling then It could be that they will keep check and monitor to see if your wife needs more put in as sometimes coils can compact . Other members have had this done. Not sure if she had clipping.... As of this year I will now have scans every two years but before that had them annually from post my bleed as I have a neck on my anneurism but because of where it’s located they can’t add any more coiling. I have another small one infundubelum I think it’s called which they monitor , oh and they keep an eye on my vp Shunt with annual checks for that. So far so good and heading for 7 years next March . I have come to find comfort in my monitoring , hope your wife does too in time. Also sharing i find it is worth keeping a small record card of my history in my handbag , doctors contacts, dates and treatments etc that way if I am travelling away from my treating Neuro hospital and needed to get checked out which I have done on occassion ( more for my Shunt) then it makes explaining lots easier, and gets you prompt attention when they read the history, they often go paler than me! Take care and try not to overthink it if you can. Easier said than done so probably worst advice ever....
  2. Hi Bev 6 months on and you want so much to hit fast forward and be able to resume life as you knew it but the effects of the bleed along with the meningitis means that your brain is still reeling from what is like an assault and some of the effects you describe are very familiar and I can still get some if not all of them if I over do things now over six years later. I couldn’t cope with any sensory load beyond gentle cognitive stimulation for the first year really. Conversations had to be one on one, if I went somewhere noisy I had to lie down after with everything reeling and the first time I went in a supermarket all the lights and pace , well i almost passed out. Didn’t go again for ages! It does get better but you have to give it time. Don’t stop trying and seeing what’s ok but rest after, that’s your mantra for now, do something, anything, then rest that brain. Earplugs, sunglasses are brilliant and again I still always have those with me. Drinking you should be aiming for a adults intake of water and make sure you don’t let yourself get hungry as the brain uses lots of energy as it heals. Tell your friends what’s hard for you, suggest doing something different, quiet walk , or ask them to book somewhere quiet and just join them for dessert or a starter, go for a cream tea somewhere off the beaten track . That’s what I did, I can now manage a meal sometimes but more than 5 people round the table and I start to lose attention and words but again it’s improving now still. My social life is very different, gentle probably best describes it but I’m still curious still pushing boundaries. I was 39 when I had my SAH.
  3. Daffodil


    Hi Lorna, Welcome. There are lots of good and historical threads to read on BTG that will hopefully let you know it does improve but it needs time, care and patience and also a willingness to change. After a bleed things won’t just bounce back into place and you can’t push through, you have to recognise the invisible but serious injury you have sustained and you need to pace things slower than you did and give your battered brain some time to recover. Everyone is unique in their bleed effects but you need to pay attention to when things are ‘too much” and then have a break and try to be gentle with cognitive demand and build it up slowly. There’s some good advice on back to work if you search that , the main thing is to not try to fit back in as you were, slow is you really friend for now. take care
  4. I think once I could get my brain to stay still for a bit post bleed I started to become more and more curious about what had happened to me and what life might now look like. When I got on line, (which was a fair few months afterwards) I scanned and read the statistics. About 40% of all people who have a ruptured brain aneurysm will die as a result 4 out of 7 people who recover from a ruptured brain aneurysm will have disabilities Brain aneurysms are most prevalent in people ages 35 – 60, but can occur in children as well Women, more than men, suffer from brain aneurysms at a ratio of 3:2 Ruptured brain aneurysms account for 3 – 5% of all new strokes (2012 Brain Aneurysm Foundation) The facts scared me. Too harsh, too disconnected to my experience so then I looked for stories from people who had been through this. I didn't find BTG and you lovely lot until much later after I had my shunt placed but I did read a book @Rebooting my brain' documenting personal experiences of SAH as part of my attempt to learn more about what happened to me and I took great comfort from this shared experience in them even if at the time it took a huge effort to read it and it was not always a comfortable read. So woke up this morning and I wondered if having a thread where we can share book recommendations might be useful to members so I am posting this as a starter of the three books I recommend.
  5. Daffodil

    What's a SAH? What is that to do with the lesson?

    Paul Welcome to the fold. Surviving our bleeds changes us forever and each of us have different impacts and legacy of our bleed as unique as our individual brains are but we all share that curiosity of possibilities in a life after bleed and I think that is a real key towards a more lasting acceptance of change having been forced upon us, None one of us can go back, rewind the clock so to speak but we can be kind to our brains as it adjust to its new working capacity and limits And in that find things we enjoy and can do and a pace that is good for us now, in this new state. I am six and half years out . Talking, curiosity and stubbornness are the three qualities I think are my greatest tools in my ‘rebuilding life’ kit as I explored what on Earth I can do now. Early on I couldn’t see much possibility of how I could ever regain doing much of what I had taken for granted but now with that time passed I can look back and see so much progress, so much achievement but also acceptance that I am and will always be different to whom I was then. And I’m cool with that. Go steady Paul. be kind to self.
  6. Daffodil

    One year anniversary after SAH

    Hi there, Its not uncommon , they will monitor the coiling and in some cases I think members have had extra coils placed where the coiling has impacted. I am not sure the thresholds to do this but they should be able to answer that for you. I have a neck on my aneurysm because of where it is situated between the dissection point of two arteries which means they can’t overfill it and also have another small one so I was scanned annually for the first four years and now am scanned every two years. ‘No significant change’ is my goal each time and I’m even used to the MRI sounds now. Still hate the head mask though. I have been told in my case they would have to stent if they felt further intervention was needed. Happy Anniversary, 1 year out is a good feeling.
  7. Dina The first months post SAH are pretty scary and worrying . Every ache and pain triggers a response and no matter how rational or logical a thought we give it we still worry it’s somehow connected. All I can share is what I have learnt in the time since then which for me is to sit with and watch. I practise mindfulness, which is the practice of paying attention. I did it before SAH and have continued since and it’s helped me. It allows me to concentrate on breathing when I am in pain but also to just pay attention to what’s happening . Is it changing? What does it feel like? Not to judge it or solve it but just to observe it. Then here is the thing, if something or one thing is really getting worse, say one symptom or pain and discomfort increasing then that’s something you shouldn’t ignore but if it is shifting and changing and you can shift your attention to just your breathing, noticing the pause and pace of this then often you can ride that crest and the stress you will be holding, the anxiety you are feeling will flow away. You aren’t alone. It’s ok to feel scared and it’s good to talk about that and you need to be kind and give yourself time to recover. The brain heals silently and invisibly but not without plenty or bumps in the road.
  8. Daffodil

    On this day in 2016 I had my stroke.

    Glad you are enjoying the journey Johnnie , your motoring passion will definately have helped many....shame about fuel costs right now though, I may have to consider Horse and cart at this rate
  9. Daffodil


    I wanted to note that whilst Hydrocephalus is one potential side effect of a bleed it would be picked up on a MRI with changes in ventricle size. Hydrocephalus is incredibly serious though and as life threatening as a bleed so for the avoidance of doubt though NHS guidance and definition is : “Hydrocephalus is a build-up of fluid on the brain. The excess fluid puts pressure on the brain, which can damage it. If left untreated, hydrocephalus can be fatal.” People diagnosed with permanent hydrocephalus require a VP Shunt to be placed as their ventricles are not working properly and any changes have to be investigated in case of Shunt malfunction . Living with a shunt can bring dizziness and vertigo episodes as Delta, I and others can attest to but it is a thankfully rare complication. Some people can have temporary blockage of ventricles post their bleed due to amount of blood but an EXtra ventricular drain (EVD) is placed and often is enough to relieve symptoms and their ventricle drainage recovers and no Shunt is needed. Blood anywhere across the brain surface can have lasting effects ; vertigo, tinnitus, eyesight issues are all reported by members.
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    Ann - New Member

    Ann, I think that there is no rhyme or reason for our anneurism , I too was not considered high risk and was 39 when I had mine. Main thing is to build up slowly. If you do something then rest after. Make lists, use reminders and be kind and gentle with yourself as you heal. We are all lucky to be here and sharing our stories but it’s an adjustment as we realise our brain doesn’t quite react and do as it used to. Aim at steady, that’s the best goal I find and always take the time to get outside and just sit quietly and enjoy the day. re driving, in the U.K. you qualify for free buses if you surrender license due to medical reasons, is that the same in US I wonder? If not maybe there is a local community scheme to help with rides to the mall or similar? Your doctors should know.
  11. Firstly I think you should push to go back and be seen as the arms aching etc needs to be investigated and you seem to have a few worsening symptoms. Blood pressure tablets and swings in pressure can cause headaches but also just being back at work may have created a reaction for you. All the things you did before without thinking, the everyday processing of thoughts has been impaired by the bleed, you may be feeling well but your brain is having to work harder unseen to do the things you have always done. That takes energy and effort and can manifest as a headache or other odd aches and pains. The brain itself doesn’t register pain but of course controls everything in your body. I had strange effects for years and even now can get ocular migraines from doing too much which is very scary to suddenly lose sight.... Maybe look at how you are managing your activity. Have you just jumped straight back in? If yes, try to slow it down a little, put pauses between tasks, drink more water and concentrate on one thing at a time. Try to block background noise when you are working on something. You need to give your brain space and proper time to heal. If you fell over and really sprained your ankle you would have swelling, a massive bruise and you wouldn’t for a moment think you could run. It would be tender. Now apply that logic to the injury you have had in your brain, you can’t see it but you have to be kind And gentle with yourself as you heal . It’s not even two months , you need to try to pace yourself I think and that should help. Best wishes and really hope those headaches improve
  12. Susanne, I am not sure where you are located but if you are in the Uk you should find the treating hospital should have neurological nursing team and I would get in touch with them for some advice. 8 weeks is an incredibly fast return to work by anyone’s standards and I wonder has your husband actually accepted the magnitude of what happened or has he tried to push on and pretend it’s all in the past. Thing is the reality is blood spilled over the surface of his brain and that has effect whether we like it or not. it is a a permanent injury but equally one that we can adapt to . However not making allowance for a change in stamina and capacity of our brain will result in incredible fatigue and it sounds a lot like what your husband is experiencing. About 15 months after mine I attended a support group at my treating hospital, it was the earliest I could manage this with travel and there was a chap there who had done as your husband did and basically tried to force back to normal and bless him he used to almost fall asleep in the room he was so cognitively exhausted. My suggestion is to sit sit down and try and talk about this, the current pattern is not sustainable or enjoyable for anyone least of all him so something needs to change. Every action we do is managed by the brain and that takes energy, so After you do something that takes concentration , then have a pause, small rest then go on. Eat well, drink plenty of fluids and don’t try to match what you did before. In time he may do but paring it all down and building it up slowly and pacing activity will be the only way he can start to understand the new limits. Its hard but I promosie if you talk and make allowances then things should improve.
  13. Daffodil

    Mary-Clare. My SAH story so far........

    A lovely post and very honest. I winced as I recalled that constipation from all the meds...good to hear the site is helping you , it certainly has helped me. The water and pacing and meditation will all be useful that’s for sure. you asked about nausea, mine continued for a good whilst after my bleed but I had some other complications that could have been the cause of that. Main thing if it’s increasing , or getting worse then speak to docs, don’t suffer in silence or ignore things. Look forward to hearing from you on the site.
  14. Pat, have a shunt as well and I found I had almost no sensation around it to the touch of the skin for a good while after it was placed. Once the initial scar healed it was totally numb but then as it started to regain some sensation in that area of my scalp I found it was tender and also had some vey strange sensations, like a creeping feeling sometimes and it also felt tight. That combined with being able to hear the mechanics of it , being barometrically sensitive and the tube sometimes aching means I don’t ever totally forget I have it ( I had mine placed 6 yrs ago) but equally I’m very grateful I have it. If you have pain, or sensations that are changes to previous or increasing for you and you are worried you should always get checked out. Any hospital will take it very seriously indeed as a shunt malfunction is not to be ignored but I’m sure this is not that. Main things is to educate yourself what a shunt malfunction would show up like; in extreme cases it is increasing dizziness, imbalance, eyesight deteriorating , vomiting. Other things to keep check of is make sure is no swelling around any of the pipe or shunt site and no redness or discolouration.
  15. Daffodil


    Tara, there are lots of reasons that there can be pressure on the brain, one is if her ventricles were affected by the initial bleed then this can cause a fluid build up but sounds like they will Try and work out what is going on and find the right solution for her. I had to be readmitted after my SAH , I had coiling and also surgery to place a drain to relieve fluid pressure when I haD the bleed ( or complicated Hydrocephalus it is called I think) and was in for well over a month initially but then was readmitted 3 months after discharge when it was obvious pressure was building and eventually required a permanent solution for Hydrocephalus with a VP shunt . I can’t speak for having a craniotomy but later surgery sometimes is the only option with complications and if it’s helps mum then it’s for the best. take care, sending best wishes.