minan Posted July 3, 2011 Share Posted July 3, 2011 I am new here, and wonder if there has been any discussion around this topic. When I first had my SAH's, I had such intense battles with the people that I thought would be there for me. This ranged from my own aggression during hospitalization (fueled by meds I was on) + my caregivers' angry response, as well their own aggression and venting frustration upon me, inappropriately. Example: Boyfriend (a burned out caregiver himself for others) broke up with me in the ER. Parents' stress (caring for more than me) and blaming me for depression... etc. This all provoked an intense depression that has only begun to lift as I began to heal. And I saw life in a new way: I am alone. There is no one who will really ever be there for me. "Normalcy" has begun to return, which I am grateful for, but the existential crisis is not completely gone. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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