Chressers Posted December 15, 2011 Share Posted December 15, 2011 I've been looking for a good forum to join for a couple weeks now, so glad I found this place! I had my SAH October 22 if this year, exactly one month before my 32nd birthday. I was out to dinner with some friends for someone else's birthday celebration when suddenly the music cut out, sharp pains in my head, and I broke out into a sweat and became dizzy. I grabbed my friend's shoulder and she took one look at me and said "are you okay? You're white as a sheet!" All i could say was "No, I don't think so. I might need someone to ccall an ambulance..." Two of my friends helped me to the restroom, where I got sick and couldn't stand for long. They took me to aa local emergency clinic, and upon giving them my symptoms, received a CT which showed a brain bleed. I was rushed to the neuro unit at the hospital (reportedly one of the best in the state, glad to say) and admitted for more tests. It was an SAH, which I laughed at. "Under spider bleed?" I said, having a decent grasp of Latin words and prefixes. I underwent surgery the next morning, where they clipped the aneurism. Apparently i had severe vasospasm during surgery and stayed in ICU for several days. I had aa couple other surgeries as well as an angioplasty...I don't really remember most of it, my friends tell me I was pretty oout of it the first few days. In my memory, though, the worst part about the hospital was that they partially shaved my beautiful long red hair and left me with a hhuge, ugly scar at my hairline; the catheter did something weird to my bladder and I had to urinate, badly, several times a day (and sometimes didnt make it to the bathroom); and they wouldn't let me take showers with staples in. Coming home, I've been exhausted and depressed, adding to the fact that I've been unemployed since August and spend most of my days looking for a new job and fighting with the government for my unemployment insurance. The hardest part for me is the fear. I haven't had any all-out panic attacks (yet), but there is a constant, overwhelming sense of dread that it will happen again, or that I will lose functionality in an area I require. I have never had a good memory, so I don't really notice that. I read the blogs and forums and hear a lot of people saying they feel "detached;" that hasn't affected me yet, but I'm scared that it will. I get dizzy any time I change altitude...standing up, lying down, moving quickly puts the universe on spin cycle for a half a minute or so. I decided to stay away from alcohol altogether, and I get so tired I'm worried that if i do get a job soon, I'll blow it by being physically weak. The bills are sstarting to come in, and as iI didn't have insurance when I went into the hospital, that's just more stress. Any tips? P.S. Please forgive typos and double letters...I'm typing this on my phone and iit doesn't always play right. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
donnamarie Posted December 15, 2011 Share Posted December 15, 2011 Welcome to the site. i think we all go through stages of thinking it might happen again the best advice i can give you is to get plenty of rest drink loads of fulids and if your head says no do push it. you seem to be getting on really well in your recovery just take each day at a time. lokking forward to chatting to you sometime donna PS dont worry about typo's ive mastered them and everyone can read my posts fine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Louise Posted December 15, 2011 Share Posted December 15, 2011 Hi there Warm welcome to the site, glad you found us. You are not alone in feeling fear - we've all been there it gets easier as time passes honest.... take care Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sandi K Posted December 15, 2011 Share Posted December 15, 2011 Welcome Chressers! You need time to heal, your brain needs quiet time. Can you apply for help from your government for any type of medical disability funding? Just to give you some time to properly heal. If you broke your leg you wouldn't be expecting to walk yet hon. Sandi K. Xoxoxo Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
goldfish.girl Posted December 15, 2011 Share Posted December 15, 2011 Hi Chressers! There's lots of information & support here to help you. All the symptoms you describe do improve over time so try not to worry too much. Michelle x Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jess Posted December 15, 2011 Share Posted December 15, 2011 Hi there it does get easier as time goes on look forward to chatting sometime. Jess.xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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