Hi Marie and welcome to behindthegray I am sorry you had to find us but we will all be here whenever you need to talk I had my sah 6yrs ago this september, and I can relate very well to the feelings of doom however everyone on this site helped get me through it, it does get easier it may not feel like it's gonna at this moment in time but it will. I have had to children since mine one 5 in october the other 1 in september, so it will get easier I was 23 when mine ruptured. Jess.xxx