Donna you can and will get through it I was thinking just like you I also thought there was no way out I wouldn't go anywhere on my own with Garry just in case I collapsed I was more frightened for him than me just in case he walked into the road and stuff, cause it only really hit me when he was born which is probably why you are feeling it now cause you already have your son. Only you can get you through this, but I am confident that you will manage it in the end you will see and just be grateful everyday that you survived. Just PM me anytime or send an e-mail you know the address now. Jess.xxx