Jan Posted June 11, 2019 Share Posted June 11, 2019 It was 4 years last Friday 7th June that my brain let me down so very badly and changed my life entirely. This has been my worst year by far.I have words and their meanings in my vocabulary now that I never thought would apply to me, for example....... depression, anxiety, ptsd, fear. I have little self confidence.I have got into a rut that I need to find my way out of. This next year will be a year of change.It has to be. First step ( The BigOne ) is underway, selling the house and moving somewhere new. John and I realise now that there are only the two of us on this journey so the destination is OUR choice without having to consider others and what they might think. We have no family support at all so we need to hold each other’s hand very tightly and walk our own path to wherever it leads us. I try to be upbeat about the changes and challenges ahead but that finger of fear still taps me on my shoulder and by doing so has the unique ability to darken a day. I can only keep trying to try which is my intention. I am lucky, so lucky to have 3 people in my life who I love dearly and can rely on ALWAYS. My wonderful & very patient husband John. My darling Mum, and of course my very best friend Michelle who has helped me every step of the way and I hope will continue to do so because I’d be lost without her.Thank you Michelle for everything, for always being there for me. Love you. I’ll finish here, I didn’t know what I was going to post here so I’ve been typing as I’ve thought. Jan xx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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