donna79

Thankyou all I am enjoying being with the girls at work again x x I do get tired but come home and rest and sleep if need to... My head goes in a whirl alot and makes me wobbly on my legs like i'm floating type feeling x x x I am working 10-1 3 days a week at the moment and as and when i feel ready i will extend till 10-2 x x ( a case of needing the money )..

Hello all Well has you know I have started back to work i am at the moment working 10-1..... I am enjoying it and its nice being round the girls again I have put this post in so i can get feedback from you all on how you felt when returning to work... I get tired and my head feels like its in a whirl when i leave not in a stressed way x x x Thankyou all for your help and support x x x Also from time to time i keep feeling like somethings going to happen with my head in a whirl its one of those difficult things to explaine......

I am like Tina but lately my eyes close by themselves I am that tired x x Scares me because I am back to work next week x x I think its one of these things us survivours have to live with xxxxx love donna

Hi Lauren You will make alot of life long friends here x x x what i call family x x people who understand and care x x I am quite lucky really my family do talk to me but i do feel that my family is scared to come near me sometimes x x I am under a councillor at the moment i am struggling to get my head around why and dealing with dizzyness x x i get so scared and lonely because i dont think my family will ever understand how i feel x x my husband i think trys to ignore what i've been through x x You have to think of YOU, this is your life grab it with both hands. I am really close with my sister and thought of her slipping away scares me x x Keep your chin up and anything I can help with i will try x x x Love DONNA XXXXX

Hi all Was just woundering if anyone had spinning feelings ( sort of like feeling of being on a boat xx ) I am nearly 6 months post sah xx I know we all have different feelings but this one is horrible feeling xxx Thoughts go through your head like normal x x i keep thinking is it blood in my head rushing around and lots of things like that xx I just wanted to know if this is normal xxx thankyou guys love donna xxxxxx

I seem to be having less bad days the further post sah xxx but what worrys me is i will get to the state i was with my emotions when they was really bad xx but i keep telling myself i am aloud to cry i thibnk its its more of controlling my emotions that i need to do at the time when the tears come xxxx When people say bad days do you mean emotional wise or headaches ?? or even both x x

Hi Evelyn I am nearly 6 months post sah and at about your stage i had lots of different tingly feelings horrible x but what i used to think was its all recovery so i'd rest up x x x Your body tells you in different ways to rest and i am still learning them now xxx donna xxxxx

Zip good luck with the scan hun xx The consultant told me there is nothing to worry about even if i have to have another coil put there xxxxx

Thankyou Karen funny enough i am calm they know its there so to me thats good because they are monitering and if any changes then they will coil it x x which she said is less traumatic and is done over 1-2 days xxxx

Hello all been to my appointment today was just woundering if anyone has a neck on their anni x x i have a tiny neck which they are just going to keep doing scans to check but just said to me i am doing really well and to carry on with my life x x i am free to swim and go back to work when ready xxx love donna

Hello nick xxxx I get the feeling you should sell that car to me xxxx hope you are well

Keith that is one food i like yay xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx TOMATOES everyday for me Thankyou for fact xx

Keith it has made me think ( something i didnt think i was capable of ) you are right...... Tunnels are different lengths and i now know mine is an emotional adapiting tunnel i need to realise that the things i do in life now are slower but when i think about it slowing down is not a bad thing i used to rush round and miss the things going off in my life now i see it all x so to me thats good.... My emotions to me are in a muddle but like yourself one day my mind will be free and taken up by helping others which is what i want to do x x i want to be their like you are for others and help them find that path of healing x x ( any tips ) THANKYOU KEITH

I am 5 months in now and still feel down but manage to get out and about i think its a mental issue more than anything x I keep telling myself I am still mending but it does worry me sometimes that this is it .... what do people mean new you in what way do we change or is it just the out look on life xxx

Anxiety is really bad with me so hoping work will help with that xxxxxxxxxxxx

I think i know what you mean Nuri There are so many different feelings we get in our heads and neck like now i have a cold ............. my neck feels like i have slept funny AGAIN and my head feels heavy and full x x Its such a jungle in my body at the moment and I feel the slightest things and think i'm ok its all healing... I can go a week with no feelings then its head sensations all over again x

I am thinking of going back to work at end of October on a phased return.......... I will eventually be working 9-3 four days a week. I am just worried I dont know what to expect I feel scared i wont cope but dont know what with I work along side with my sister in a busy dental practice my boss has even said to me just do paper work i dont need to do face to face with patients until i feel ready x I was just woundering how you all felt when returning to work and you felt whilst there x I know we are all different

Well I have walked miles this weekend away in butlins xxxxxxxx my shins really hurt but i kept going xxxxxxxx i am going to keep on top of the walking i think this will help keep my legs feeling stronger xxx

Thankyou guys Its just nice to know normality is out there and i will get it back.............. I have appointment with councillor for post traumatic stress so hopefully they will be able to help me overcome my fear of fainting and then that should help me alot................ I take paroxitine 30mg 1 a day now and diazapam on 1 a day but doc wants me to reduce it............ she did mention something about beta blockers any1 have any ideas how these will help x

Well 5 months on.................. If I look back at what i have achieved and where i have been and things i have done i have done fab x x x I just need to hit this anxiety in the bud and what i think is depression because i look blinking miserable all the time x x I feel tired alot..........and eyes not fantastic but i can see x x So if i really look at it i am doing great and should be grateful how i am x x ( its just strange at the moment the feelings i have ) WHY am i so fed up when i am ALIVE ................. did you guys feel this way and does the feeling of being fed up get better.... you guys are the best and thankyou ALL for your help

well done yasmin Hope you enjoy your next visit as much has that one x x x x x

Glad your blood tests are fine YIPPEE Its nice to get good news x x x x x Hopefully mine will be fine also i had them done friday so should hear how they are end of this week x x x

I am suffering really bad at the moment and taking peroxitine every morning and diazapam once or twice a day x Take one at night and one in the morning x x Its so hard when the tears come because i loose control and say i dont want to be here and that my family dont love me x ( its horrible ) and i feel it controls me not the other way round I tell myself things like YOU ARE OK IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN. YOU WONT BLACK OUT ( you havent for 5 months so why now, and its a rare thing to happen ) YOU WILL BE OK AND GET THROUGH THIS. I am being referred for councilling for PTS lets hope they can help me get hold of my life again x

Thankyou all In woke this morning feeling the tears coming but i kept saying NO it was hard but NO i am not going to cry i am fine x I went round home bargins and even did a shop in tescos..........I was fine x I went for a drink in the cafe and just felt so down like i could of burst into tears so i decided ti take a diazapam and it DID help it took the edge off feeling low and i even laughed that was at 1pm and now 6pm i am still smiling x x x Its always the mornings that are worse and when i am just sitting around thinking x x I have cross stitch, colouring and loads of mags x x x anything to help take my mind off things x x

It also feels like my head is going to explode and my bodys giving up x x