I'm just looking for the support from other suffers at this time or anyone who can help me with my frame of mind x
I have been waking up for the past 1 1/2 weeks feeling like i dont want to be here anymore but also scared that i am going to do something stupid ( feeling i have no control over my mind )
I feel that i had no control over the bleed so i dont have any control over weather i do something stupid x
I have gone to the doctor i have NOW been referred to a councellor for post trumatic stress and have been recommended to take my diazapam at night and once in day if needed, i wanted to avoid taking drugs but feel i dont have a choice because my thoughts are so strong x
I am looking for whatever support i can from anyone who has had or having these horrible strong thoughts ( i feel they are ruling me )
I try and stay positve BUT i am finding it really really hard x x x