Tina

Hi Everyone I have just started seeing a counsellor about my panic attacks and anxiety....we are also talking through ways of dealing with them...i have been on a waiting list for 6 months....i am lucky. It is helping to talk it through. I have had 3 so far...i think you only get 6- 8 sessions. Stephen its great to read you are accepting the adjustments needed.... well done you ! It really does help to talk about things. Love Tina xx

Thank you Janet xx

Hi Mollie.... i agree with Janet....can you change surgery ?? Sending you big hugs Love Tina xx

Fantastic news...so pleased for you both......take care love Tina xx

Bless you....i do feel for you....i think it is a good idea to go to the doctors. Hope that all goes well today for your husband...will be a very worrying time for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Take care Love Tina xx

Hi Donna You are not alone as Janet and Stephen have said....i cant add much more, apart from keep positive and keep smiling....thank God for this website and all the wonderful friends on here that understand what we are going through. Take care my friend Love Tina xx

Hi Paul A very warm welcome to you and michele....you both have had a very tough time.......Janet has given sound advice and it really is rest rest rest... Take care and look forward to hearing more from you soon. Love Tina xx

Bessie ...my thoughts and prayers are with you and your Mum...take care Love Tina xx

Hi Perry& Everyone The one thing i find really hard to deal with is that where i was so in control before SAH....i ran my own business like clockwork and my home and family....attention to detail ...never panicked....remembered everything without having to have post it notes everywhere. Never panicked about crowds of people or going out on my own.....i feel very cross with myself about my panic and anxiety attacks. I suppose i was a bit of a control freak / perfectionist and yes i find this new me very hard to accept. I actually feel tearful typing this, and the spinning feelings , hit you suddenly when you are not expecting them. The lights still affect me, especially in supermarkets. So do loud noises. Where you have to stay indoors to recover for quite some time as i did, i found i was avoiding going out...especially on my own. I found if i walked too far up the road and could not see my house i started to panic....head pounding....balance all over the place.....needed to get home. I did not tell anyone about this for ages. In fact the first person was karen, a few months back...i then posted a little bit of how i felt on the green room. I am glad i did as i have started to address it. Karen suggested using a stick...this did help alot, once i got over the embarrassment of having one ! Felt everyone was looking at me. I think Stephen said something recently about learning to accept the new you and move forward.....wise words.....this is something i am trying to do. I will get back to work, i will just have to adapt to new ways of getting organised and to help my memory and tiredness. I am a strong determind person, which will help. I still have this overwhelming feeling of guilt, the feeling of letting everyone down and putting my family through hell and back with worry. I am on the road to recovery...each day is better....i still get bad days and another illness has set me back a bit recently....but onwards and forwards. Sorry if i have rambled.....obvivously needed to let it all out!!! LOL! Apologies !! Love Tina xx

Hi Donna Mine are getting better......but i did have a nightmare recently....where i went all paralysed and could not move on my right side and could not speak...felt so real...was scary. Don't know why it happens...maybe mind just running riot. I try to concentrate on the positive....i am not paralysed...all is ok....i still get funny if crowded and on my own...but trying to deal with it. I have been on a train twice now.......was scary but did it and felt good! Sounds really silly doesn't it? Donna....you have come a long way.....you will get through this.....just takes time.....you take care ...love to you... Tina xx

Hi ...yes i am sure your GP will sort you a Doctors note......and as Janet has said ...hope the Angiogram shows the problem and they can sort your Hubby out...Take care both...love Tina xx

Hi, I had to wait nearly 2 weeks after my bleed for my brain to reduce in swelling before they could clip me....please try not to worry, easy to say i know...but they will be watching very closely, he is in the right place. You take care, i cant imagine how scary it all is for you....thinking of you. Love Tina xx

Hi John Thinking of you....cant believe this is still going on for you.....such a worry and stress you just dont need. You take care....really hope you get some answers. Love Tina xx

Hi Rod I also have had one...and all i remember was that it did not hurt and was not uncomfortable afterwards. I was clipped and have also just recently been discharged. Having been clipped i dont have to have angiograms again, or scans, unless i feel there is a problem...which there wont be Take care Love Tina xx

Hi Sean A very warm welcome to Behind the Gray Glad you found us by accident! You will find lots of helpful information and lots of wonderful support....has been a Godsend to me! I also have memory problems....my Hubby and kids often have to fill me in with what happened in hospital. You are doing great!! Well done you ! Look forward to hearing from you again soon. Take care, Love Tina xx

Hi Bessie A very warm welcome to you.....i am not surprised that you are so worried, what a terrible thing to happen. But as the others have said.....your Mum is in the right place now and your Consultant is on the case. Is still very early days....i was clipped so a little different to coiling, but also was very weak and my memory was very blurry. I wish you well...please let us know how your Mum is doing. Take care Love Tina xx

Hi Shiree Great to hear from you and that you are doing so well...take care love Tina xx

Hi Sandie A very warm welcome to you....so glad you have found us...as the others have already said.....here we understand what you are going through.....it turns your whole life upside down.....but you will get there...good days, bad days.....we are here for you....take care and look forward to hearing more from you. Love Tina xx

Hi A very warm welcome to you...so sorry to hear about your friend....i was clipped like you and had sight and balance problems.....i could swallow ok. I hope you friend improves....look forward to hearing from you soon...you take care...love Tina xx

Hi Phil Fabulous news as Janet has just said....so pleased for you both....wishing you both lots of love ...take care..love Tina xx

Hi John...really hope you gets some answers and results....take care love Tina xx

Hi Debbie A very warm welcome to you.....so glad you found us.....BTG has been a God send to me and you will find lots of support and advice here and lots of great friends Its early days ...so listen to your body as Karen would say....take care and look forward to hearing more from you. Love Tina xx

And another Hi Adam from me.......a very warm welcome and hope to hear more from you ...take care. Love Tina xx

Hi Bobby A very warm welcome to BTG....as the others have said, you are doing extremely well, is very early stages. Just remember to listen to your body and rest up....like you i came home with no aftercare... nothing....there does seem to be a big gap with SAH! Without BTG dont know where i would be......look forward to hearing more from you...take care. Love Tina xx

Hi Leonie So glad they found it and can keep an eye on you....some peace of mind as the others have said. You take care...love Tina xx