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About kempse

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  • Birthday 11/01/62

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    Am married with 3 children, aged 9, 15 and 17
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  • SAH/Stroke Date
    08 November 2008

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  1. Hello: I am David

    Hi David and welcome to BTG. Sorry to hear you've suffered a double sah but glad you have found this site so early into your recovery. I'm sure you'll find lots of useful information on here as you read the various posts and will be able to relate to things that others have experienced during their own recoveries. I had my one and only sah on 8th November, 9 years ago - I too was delayed in getting treatment -, from ringing for an ambulance myself on 8th, I eventually had my coiling on the 18th with several missed opportunities on the way. Recovery is a very individual thing but taking one step forward and two back is quite a common occurrence during those first few weeks, months and beyond. The rest between activities that Daffodil mentions is so important - so many of us are caught out by thinking we've had a good day, felt normal, achieved a lot, then wham we feel like we've been knocked for six and within a day or two we feel so wiped out, we can hardly do anything at all. None of this is easy especially if you have others to care for, but it's well worth it in the long run. Wishing you all the best, Sarah
  2. Nine Years who-hoo

    Nice to see you call in Colleen - congratulations on reaching this landmark with all the hard and busy work that comes with it. As you know I will be reaching the 9 year mark too - exactly 1 week after you. Despite the vast difference in miles between us, I'm sure we will have travelled a similar path to get where we are now - busy and I too shall be spending part of my annie-versary in a meeting lol. Perhaps we need more rest in our lives Colleen ...........or is that just wishful thinking Take care, Sarah
  3. Hi Zach, I am a bit surprised you are not being taken seriously when explaining your symptoms and experiences to the doctors. Whilst we are not medically trained on this forum, have any of these doctors actually carried out standard neurological tests ie checking your pupils and reflexes for example? Not all general practitioners or paramedics are clued up on bleeds to the brain and don't always connect the two with the symptoms they present. After all, similar symptoms can be caused by a whole lot of other conditions and I have read many a case where a sah had taken place yet was not initially diagnosed. In fact I was probably one such case. I too felt at the time that I was not being taken seriously and it was only through perseverance after several missed opportunities that I got to have a CT scan. ( I will mention that this was 6 days after the bleed, not years later although who knows, it could have been if it wasn't for me and my family being persistent) I will briefly explain what happened in my case although as you will appreciate, everyone's experience of a bleed on the brain is different. There can be similarities, but it all depends on the area of the bleed and the severity of it. Therefore symptoms at the outset, recovery and resultant problems can vary quite significantly amongst individuals. My subarachnoid haemorrhage was almost 9 years ago. I did not have the thunderclap headache which many sufferers describe, I did however start with a headache at the back of my head. Approximately 10/15 minutes later I experienced the sensation of liquid running under my skull. I don't recall any pops as such, but I do remember that my peripheral vision started closing in - the best way I can describe it is that it was like wearing blinkers like on a horses bridle and they were being pushed together at the front until my vision became such that I could only see a narrow vertical slit of daylight between complete darkness on either side. It was at this point I thought I was going to pass out and die. Thankfully, within a few minutes, my vision corrected itself and being in the UK I rang 999. The paramedic who arrived did not obviously suspect a sah as he left after various checks, leaving me at home. During the next few days I had the most horrendous headache, could not put my chin down to my chest, felt nauseous at times, and just slept for most of the time. I did however ring the NHS helpline, visited a doctor twice and an optician and still no one thought or suggested I needed further investigation. I knew my head was not right, but why wouldn't anybody listen, or understand my concerns and try to find out what was wrong with me - it was like banging my head against a brick wall - in more ways than one! On the 6th day after it happened my dad rang my gp surgery and demanded I get further investigation asap. That got a reaction! I had an appt made at a neuro clinic in a nearby hospital that afternoon. At 9pm, after five hours of waiting, I eventually saw two doctors who said 'before we send you home, we'd just like you so see a consultant". The consultant decided to send me for a CT scan and that hospital is where I stayed for the next 11 days. Since having my aneurysm coiled I have at times experienced numbness in my arms, double vision once, multiple episodes of aura of migraine without the headache, fatigue, brain fog, memory issues etc. I do not have headaches or nausea though. It maybe the stress and worry of it are causing some of your symptoms, but if I were you I would keep on trying to get referred - although I would check if and when you get to the stage of a referral to ask whether a CT or MRI would be more appropriate. It may be worth getting your blood pressure checked regularly if you don't already do that. Wishing you all the best, Sarah
  4. Concerned

    So glad you got the reassurance so soon Sonia - it makes all the difference. Take care, Sarah
  5. Concerned

    Hi Sonia - I think I would be confused too in that situation. I imagine if you just file it, it will keep cropping up in your mind which is why I would be inclined to get to the bottom of it - either via your GP or direct to writer of the letter, especially as the letter states you remain under surveillance, but you're clearly not. I coincidentally found out that I had a 2nd aneurysm by chance while I was at a doctor's appointment - he was reading a letter from the hospital on his computer and when he'd answered my questions, I asked if there was anything else in the letter that I should know about. Not for a minute did I expect him to say I'd got another aneurysm. I've been under surveillance since my bleed in 2008 although having said that, I would be monitored with or without that second one as the one that ruptured has a wide neck and it is in a relatively rare and challenging spot. I hope you go for clarity so you can continue your daily life without it lingering over you, Take care, Sarah
  6. Hi Maeve, I'm really sorry to hear that you lost your Mum when she was so young and you naturally have these unanswered questions going round your head. It's perhaps equally impossible for us survivors of subarachnoid haemorrhages to know the answers to your questions, but my personal opinion is that your Mum probably didn't suffer and would have passed away peacefully - I base this on the fact that as she was in bed, she was probably asleep up to the bleed starting and as it was a severe bleed, I imagine she would have lost consciousness quite quickly and therefore felt no pain. Whilst a lot of people experience a thunderclap headache immediately, I didn't when I had mine. My peripheral vision closed in to the point that I thought I was going to pass out and die and remember thinking afterwards how quick and painless that would have been. Please don't feel guilty for not being there - my daughter was there when I nearly passed out and had mine been as severe a bleed as your Mums, she would not have been able to do anything to help. I'm not sure if your Mum's bleed was from a ruptured aneurysm or whether you even know, but the chances are that if she did have an aneurysm that she was unaware of, then it's quite likely that she was born with the weakness on the blood vessel which over the years turned into an aneurysm by the general pressure of blood. I was 46 when mine ruptured and bled - I had no warning at all although I was under a lot of stress at the time and have always believed that the stress caused my blood pressure to rise, causing it to rupture. On the other hand, due to fact that my aneurysm was there anyway, it was quite likely that it could have ruptured at any point in time, with or without stress at the time. Every subarachnoid haemorrhage is unique and sadly many are not as fortunate as us to survive the initial bleed. I do hope that my post has helped a little bit and not led to more questions or distress for you -that would not be my intention. I really understand how upsetting it is to lose someone close, having myself lost 4 family members since my sah, Wishing you and your sister a happy future, Sarah
  7. Kay - new member

    All the best for tomorrow Kay -try and concentrate on the 15th September when it will be all over. Not knowing until the day which method they are going to perform is not easy, but either way it is being done for a good reason and then you will not have the anxiety that you have right now - you will be able to continue with your recovery and get your life back on track without it hanging over you. The relief afterwards will be a great feeling so keep telling yourself this for the rest of today x Hugs, Sarah
  8. Thank you. Two years on!

    A lovely written post Irene and I'm pleased you are feeling more positive about the future than you were 2 years ago. You have done very well with your progress and you should be proud of yourself. Behind the Gray is certainly a great aid to recovery to those us who have had the misfortune of a brain haemorrhage. Wishing you well for the next two years and beyond, Sarah
  9. Introducing Kristi G

    Hi Kristi and a warm welcome to BTG. You have come to the right place to find support, knowledge and friendship. There are quite a few members on here who experienced a sah with no known cause. Having a bleed on the brain is certainly an experience none of us would have wished for and whilst everyone's outcome varies, there are a lot of similarities with what we experience after the event. You will gain insight from reading other's posts as you read the various threads on here. My sah was caused by a ruptured aneurysm, but like you, I wasn't admitted to hospital for several days despite calling the emergency services at the outset. The paramedic obviously didn't pick up on the severity of what had happened and although he said he could take me to hospital, he said I'd probably got better things to do on a Saturday afternoon and left me at home!! I hope your recovery goes smoothly, but do be prepared that sometimes it feels like one step forward and two back. Wishing you well, Sarah
  10. New here :) Amanda

    Welcome aboard Amanda, Sorry to hear about your unfortunate experience, little wonder you have severe anxiety and ptsd. Having said that, with the right support and time hopefully things will improve for you. It sounds like you have done remarkably well in the short time since the event and I hope progress continues for you. Being a mother of four will be hard work, especially whilst recovering from a sah - I found it all exhausting during recovery and I only had 3!! Hopefully you'll find lots of advice and tips on this site which will help you feel more reassured with feelings, etc that you encounter along the recovery path. Wishing you the very best, Sarah
  11. Hi Sammy Anne, I'm so sorry that you are still going through this nightmare situation, my heart goes out to you. Somehow, you need to concentrate on your own health and the effect all this is having on you - your daughter needs you to be as well as possible and it maybe that the antidepressants will help you cope with everything a little easier? There are several of us that have had bleeds on the brain that I am aware of who are taking antidepressants and I doubt that we would have been prescribed them if they were not safe. Discuss your concerns with your GP if in doubt. I'm not sure how long this ruling has been in place, but if your daughter is genuinely afraid I assume it may well affect her schoolwork? If that were the case, can you not speak with her school who could perhaps have someone there who your daughter could confide in and trust with any issues that cause her anxiety. Surely they have a duty of care for their pupils. Despite all that you have on your plate, you display much courage, strength and love. We all need a helping hand at times and I just wondered if you have been in contact with any organisations for domestic violence who maybe able to give you the support you deserve. Wishing you all the best,, Sarah
  12. Kay - new member

    Sorry to hear you had a knock back Kay - I hope the shock has worn off slightly since you got the news, although I doubt it. I say that as I remember all too well when I was told I had to have more coils put in as they hadn't packed it sufficiently for fear of the coils coming back out, blocking my artery and causing a stroke. To hear that when you assume everything is solved is not nice. All that was 2008/09 and in 2016 I was told the aneurysm had grown and there was talk of yet more coiling. A further scan this April and I was told it appeared stable - so all a bit confusing and unsettling. Yes, seeing those images is fascinating. I hope you won't have to wait too long - the hope being that you don't have to worry about it for too long. Best wishes, Sarah
  13. 2 year anniversary

    Congratulations on the two year mark. Great news that your scan showed no change - worth all that travelling to hear that!. Hoping next year is a good one for you. Take care, Sarah
  14. I think my SAH has won

    Hi Jan, Again some wonderful responses with good advice. As others have suggested, it may be a touch of depression returning without you realising it. I say that because I went to my gp about 8 weeks ago, not feeling depressed, just that my head felt full of fog, I was crying regularly, sleeping too much and that I was not coping as well as I had been. I was also concerned that the amount of stress I seem to attract was not doing my head any good. Result she signed me off for 3 weeks with 'depression'. Since that first appointment I have been signed off for a further 7 weeks. My sicknote said 'depression, nos' - I then looked that up nos, thinking it was 'no other symptoms' - it is not that, lol, its Not Otherwise Specified - it's put on for depressive disorders that are impairing but do not fit any of the officially specified diagnoses. I have done much research on the subject and it is a known fact that depression is a common after effect of sah. Having little or no interest in things can be a symptom of depression. Depression too is a bit like an umbrella for all sorts of mental health issues, you don't necessarily need to feel down, it can be a whole host of things that cause human beings to feel the way we do - having a brain injury/sah as we all know can alter the way we were and everything can feel so much more difficult to handle. It is frustrating! For those of us who have suffered a sah, there is little wonder we experience feelings that are not ones we perhaps had prior to it happening. Anyway, I'll try and post in the GR regarding family support - essential, but not always forthcoming. I'm not sure if you've had any counselling, but it can be very useful to discuss your issues with someone outside of the family - I'm not sure if Headway may be able to make recommendations re 'neuro' counsellors, but I've often thought speaking to someone with knowledge of sah would be more helpful than an ordinary counsellor. Although I didn't want to be put on antidepressants I did agree to try Sertraline and I do feel that I am coping better now than I was just prior to starting the tablets. Having gone from too much sleep, I'm now not getting enough and keep waking in the early hours - so I've still a way to go before my 'normality' returns! Wishing you all the best Jan, Sarah
  15. Havent a clue

    Hi CJ, That will be quite a worrying time for you which is not helped by the lack of speed having been referred as urgent by the neurologist. Whilst I am not medically qualified in any way, I did read this on the internet which states the different sizes and their classifications: Small aneurysms are less than 5 mm (1/4 inch). Medium aneurysms are 6–15 mm (1/4 to 3/4 inch). Large aneurysms are 16–25 mm (3/4 to 1 1/4 inch). Giant aneurysms are larger than 25 mm (1 1/4 inch).14 Nov 2016 It is my understanding that although aneurysms could potentially rupture at any size, the chances of it doing so increase the bigger it is. Some aneurysms grow in size, some more quickly than others and some not at all. I have an unruptured aneursym measuring 3mm and it has stayed the same for the past 8 1/2 years since it was discovered. Although at that time an 8mm one ruptured. I have annual scans to check them both. Of course we are all different and the location of the aneurysm also plays an important part in their assessment. One thing I have learnt over the years is that neuro departments can appear to be quite slow in their responses, which for us can cause a lot anxiety. I know they are extremely busy and will be prioritising their patients etc, but I do think you ought to ring them again if you don't hear something soon. It's impossible to say how concerned they may be until they make contact with you. It's the not knowing that can become difficult to deal with. Good luck and let us know how you get on, Sarah