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Macca last won the day on April 19 2020

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    60 yrs old. Two grown up sons, three grandchildren, two boys and a girl. Got married in September 12 to Sandra. Played for Oldham Athletic in early 1970s. Thankful to have found this site. Visited Hawaii and Pearl Harbor in 2003 to fulfil one off my wish list.
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    Football (soccer), reading, finding out about SAH, Spitfires, sailing ships
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    retired 11/4/2014
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    1/9/2010 L Ant comm- coiled

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  1. Devastated by this news. My SAH was almost ten years ago. It was some time before I found out about this site and when I joined Win was one of the first people to greet me and she told me about singing and having a laugh. I didn't think much of it at first but then one day she said something very profound and it has stuck with me ever since. She told me there was always someone worse off than yourself, and rather than be miserable and look on the down side of life, I should look for new opportunities as the 'new you.' It didn't dawn on me until a couple of days later what she was really saying- my flash to bang time wasn't very good after my SAH - that she was indeed talking about herself, and she was basically telling me I should count myself lucky. I could still see my kids and grandkids grow, I could still walk and talk and look forward to going back to work, albeit in a reduced capacity, and so on. The more I thought about it, I thought that's one savvy, gutsy lady, what have I got to cry about. From that realisation day on, I always tell people to look on the bright side of life, have your sad moment, but then get back on your feet and take the world on and get the most out of life. That's what Win did for me - and she told me in that most British, English way - with classic, understated brilliance and simplicity that I only had to open my eyes to see. Thanks Win, RIP Sleep tight. Macca
  2. Hi jenni, What a great bloke you've got there! A good man! Brains are complex and need time above all else. You will find that testing will probably continue until they do find and answer, and if they don't then you should keep pushing for one! One thing you will find without visual stimulation is that your audio stimulation will become sharper because your brain will be working to make sense of what you hear, rather than both what you see and hear. I've no doubt it is hard to adapt, but maybe answers are just round the corner. Patience is what you must learn at the moment. Even after these tests they may not know, you say. But then again, they may know, or be nearer to knowing - and once they do that, they may be able to find a solution for you. So again, try to look on the positive side. And next time your partner decides to do the school drop say "Wait, I'll get my coat" and go with them. Then you can walk back like you usually do - just take an umbrella with you! Don't let a bit of rain put you off! You will still have taken your daughter to school. And your partner will be impressed too! When you feel negative ask your self what the positive side is, turn things around to your advantage. I realise it is difficult for you at the moment but it will be better for you if you can see your way to try and change your mindset a bit. Maybe that won't be overnight, but doing small things successfully will start to help build your confidence. When you have set the ball rolling, momentum will build. Macca
  3. Hi Jenni, You sound a little sad today, but you are looking at the negative side of events. Have a look at the positive side and it looks a lot brighter. 1) You survived 2) You are still with us 3) You gave birth to a beautiful daughter. She is better with you in her life than without and that will always be the case. 4) You are the apple of her eye 5) You haven't let anyone down 6) Four months after a SAH is no time at all - recovery can take quite a time 7) What's wrong with walking to school and cuddling on the sofa? A Nothing. Your daughter will appreciate those times when she grows up, probably more than she appears to now! Nothing makes you closer than cuddling your Mum! Fantastic. 8 Don't dwell on the past - concentrate on the future, after all, you can't turn the clock back 9) Turn your activities away from purely visual ones for the time being, think about learning another language which you can do audibly, or listening to audio books, or learning a musical instrument. What it takes is determination and a positive attitude. 10) get your daughter to join in and help you. You can teach each other - activities you can do together. 11) You are the partner and Mum you always were -it's just another problem you've encountered. One thing you learn about after SAH is patience and that your body needs time to repair itself as best it can and for your brain to re-route. I'm sure over time things will get better. In my own case it was over two years before I started to feel 'up' again after having been 'down' for so long. But I got there and you will too. 12) Start learning to know what you can do, what you can do with assistance and what you can't do without help. It will alter over time, but doing this will in itself be a challenge, will keep you occupied and will make you feel more positive about yourself. Lastly, talk to people and try not to dwell on 'that night.' People are more receptive, I find, to helping you if they can see you are trying to help yourself rather than just waiting for things to happen. Involve and talk to your partner too who will appreciate your positive attitude and reassure you. Get a coffee group going and get talking to friends, you will be amazed at how much they will want to help you but were afraid to ask. So make the first move, that's all it takes. Get this problem by the scruff of the neck and tell yourself it isn't going to beat you, because you have a daughter who wants to see her Mum be the best she can be whatever the problem, because to her, her Mum is Supermum. And that's the way it should be! She loves you, so be the best you can be, nobody can ask any more of anyone than to try their best. Be under no illusions though. It may take quite a time for improvements to filter through. The doctors will do what they can, but you have to play your part too. There will be steps forward and maybe a few back with a few tears. That's normal. Don't be afraid to cry or be frustrated. No-one says life is easy. Life changes in one way or another for all of us. It's how you deal with it going forward that counts. Just keep batting and you will get through. Good luck. With that little girl behind you and with your partner at your side, what better team could there possibly be!? Nobody is an island. Nobody gets through life alone. Everyone needs help - it's just that now it's your turn to need it, so ask and don't feel one bit guilty about it. I wish you well Jenni. We've all been there, We know how you feel and well done for being so candid about the way you feel and for sharing it with us. Now we can help, so keep posting. Best wishes. Macca
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    Janet's Story

    Hi Janet, Welcome to BTG. I hope I can give you some answers here but no miracle cures unfortunately! Firstly, two months out from a bleed is next to no time. Please don't underestimate what you have been through. It was a very serious event that happened to you. Yes, a bleed such as you describe is classed as a form of stroke and its classic sign is the thunderclap headache. Very often you won't have the classic stroke signs advertised in the NHS FAST adverts ie Face drooping on one side, Arms, can you lift them, Speech, is it slurred and Time - get you to the hospital asap. Sadly, they don't say H - headache of the thunderclap variety, get to hospital, bluelighted! In my opinion, they should because it is every bit as dangerous as any other kind of stroke. Another problem is that you can't see it - it is internal and you look normal to everyone else so they tend to underestimate it when you tell them! It's not like a broken leg where you can see the plastercast! So you have to communicate with everyone and tell them what's happened. It's like looking at a car without an engine - looks like a car, feels like a car, but it won't start because the engine is faulty! To answer your questions:- 1) How long does recovery take? Answer - it takes as long as it takes. Everyone is different, depending on how bad their bleed was, how strong you are, and how it affected you. Some recover very quickly and for others it can take months and years. In your case you've only just started to recover so don't beat yourself up about it. You could have a way to go yet. 2) Should you quit your P/T job? Only you could answer that in the fullness of time, but give yourself a chance to recover first. You've only just started. How about a phased return to see how you get on? Or a change of duties on a temporary basis whilst you get your strength back? 3) Hit the wall? That will happen, especially in the early days that you are now going through - that's your body telling you that you've had enough for one day - listen to it. You won't need anyone to tell you - your body, remarkably resilient though it is, will do it for you. Heed its advice and rest. If there is no improvement over time or if you are worried then see your doctors again. What you describe is not uncommon after a bleed - it's normal - we've mostly all been there. We know it isn't nice and can be frustrating but there's no quick path - you just have to be patient and listen to your body. Again, if you are worried, keep in contact with your doctors. 4) What caused it? We would all be rich if we knew the answer to that one! My surgeon told me to imagine I was riding a bike - one minute its all ok and then you suddenly, and unluckily, get a puncture. Some believe stress can play a part - but you can't measure that because its effects and causes are variable in everyone so it can't be measured - but avoid it where you can. One last piece of advice - because you can't see it - communicate, communicate, communicate. People can't help you if they don't know what's up with you - so tell them and keep on telling them. Good luck in your recovery! And be patient, the world will still be there when you are ready to face it! I've been there and got the T-shirt!
  5. Congratulations Julian! Glad you are progressing, still on 'the long and winding road.'
  6. Hey Tori, This is fabulous news of your Mum's progress. Progress has obviously been slow, but that's to be expected after a serious brain injury. You just have to stick with it and watch her go! Compared to what you were describing in what seems only a few weeks ago, your Mum has come on leaps and bounds - and long may it continue! So very pleased for you both - keep the faith and keep posting -- many of us are very interested in your Mum's progress. You must be so happy after the devastation you envisaged at the start. You are playing a massive part in her recovery and now you can see the results of your labours and your patience. Fantastic! Beautiful story and I, for one, am very happy for two beautiful people who so deserve the rewards you are now reaping. Best wishes, Macca
  7. Hi Shobs, That's good news and I would expect you will appreciate that time together all the more, for the rest of your life. Onwards and upwards now, although it could still be quite a long road to full recovery for Sandeep. Fatigue will be a problem, no doubt, and he will recover in his own time.
  8. Hi Chris, Congratulations. In my humble opinion, there is no such thing as a minor injury when it comes to brains, because it is at the core of everything we say and do. You have fought your battle with the right attitudes, with courage and with a positive outlook, so very well done in getting to this milestone.
  9. Nice one Shobs, Very pleased for you both. The real road to recovery starts now and you've go off to a good start! Hey, it's ok to cry. I've done it and we blokes aren't supposed to are we? Go right ahead, I expect it's more from relief than anything else and the new dawn has come!
  10. HI Kris (hope it's ok to call you that), If you are taking any tablets check the literature that comes with them to see if anything is mentioned about known side effects. That may do something to allay your fears. If there is nothing in the literature then check with your doctors to make sure all is ok. Better to be safe than sorry. It may also be that you are noticing things more, that previously you would have paid no attention to, because of what happened to you. Safety first, though, if in doubt get checked over. Hope you are ok.
  11. Hi Clara, Welcome to BTG. Slow down a bit and don't beat yourself up about this. Your brain has undergone a very serious event and it is recovering and it needs time to heal. What you describe is very natural, with your emotions all over the place. This isn't a male/female thing - it is a SAH thing. I felt exactly the same as you do now and it does take time to get over it. Perhaps you can start talking to one person and ask them to relay the message that you get very tired very quickly and that you need to recover at your own pace. Set a time limit for that call and then stick to it. Just let them know that you re ok but still very ill and you need time and space to get back on your feet. They will understand. From their point of view, they can't see any injury or plaster-cast so to them you probably look normal, and it is a persistent problem that we all encounter but you need to keep focus on getting well. Your true friends will understand, but it can be a long process. Change has come on suddenly and you may need to make changes to your lifestyle to adapt to the new you. Try to look at it as new opportunities, rather than a bit of you that has died. It hasn't died - it has just changed. Try not to compare yourself with yesteryear. You will find new and different ways of doing things and some will be better than before. You might not think that yet, but in time, you will. I am 61 now - I used to play football, I can't now, but look on those days with fondness and am grateful that I had them. I don't look on them as a part of me that has died, I look on them with pride and look forwards to what I can do now, not what I could do then. I think that is the only way to come to terms with what has happened to you. It just takes a bit of getting used to because the change happened to you so suddenly. It is still early days yet for you, very early days, in fact, and you never know, you may get back over time, to something like the person you were before. But people and things evolve over periods of time. It doesn't happen overnight for any of us and you will need to go with the flow for some time yet. Look after yourself for now - don't worry about everyone else. Now is a time to be a little bit selfish to enable yourself to get back on your feet. Your mates will still be there when you are up to it and I'm sure there will be lots of gossip to catch up on, but only when the time is right for you! Embrace it and look forwards, not back, if you can.
  12. Hi Dotty, Welcome to BTG. As the others have said this is so very, very early in recovery terms. Many of us were in the condition you describe and yes, it is very worrying not see the 'old Dad' in there when you go to see him. However, he is still in there, it's just his brain is now starting to re-wire itself having suffered the indignity of a bleed. It is now starting to repair itself. What you have is a spilled box of Milk Tray where all the chocolates have fallen out of the tray into the carrier bag. All the parts are still there but it will just take time to get all the chocolates back into their rightful places in the tray. He needs to recover at his own pace, not the one you might want him to. What he needs from you is to be there for him, to support him when he needs it, and to give him the space and time to recover. It can be a slow process and everyone goes at different rates. He will, in time, need to make some changes to his life and routine. The issue is that change has been thrust upon you abruptly instead of gradually as it does when you age. You need to be flexible in your approach now to deal with those changes and re-build a quality lifestyle. It can be done, but having the right attitude to it from the start is key to its eventual success. We are here to offer our help and support as much as we are able. let us know how you get on and keep in touch. I wish you all well. Macca
  13. Many congratulations Shobs and Sandeep! May you have many more anniversaries and continue to improve daily! Good luck for next Monday!
  14. Shobs, Good luck with Sandeep's procedure. There is every reason for optimism and we are here for you should you need to let off steam!
  15. Hi Margaret, Yes I suffer this with intensive exercise. I found the only way is to change what I do. I now exercise less strenuously but for longer periods. Have a break and then do a bit more. Intense exercise is not an option anymore for me. I am seven years out and I became disorientated during sessions, and it felt as though someone was popping bubble wrap under my scalp and I still get that now if I do too much. I use it as my signal to stop. If you do the same as you have been doing, you'll get the same results, so, as you rightly point out, you need to change it and manage it. You might need to do this by trial and error until you find something that works for you.
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